Sooooooooooo SAD

I just realized that this Thursday March 1st 10:33pm will be 1 months since I had to put Dakota down! Its different this time around ..... cant say harder but much different .... with mom even after two years it felt like it was just yesterday ... but with Dakota it feels like he is still here... like its not real...not real yet ... When I am in my room watching TV or a movie I find myself looking over at my door waiting for him to just come into my room and lay on my bed with me.... whenever I get home I look right over at the chair he would be sitting on in the living room, and when I dont see him its natural to just assume he would be upstaris... then when I walk upstairs I cant help but glance into the guest room on the bed to see if he is there, or even when I walk into my room I cant help but just stare at my bed at times because I just want to see him laying on my bed wagging his tail as I walk up to him to say HI ...weird I sooo know .... crazy ... ohhh lord dont get me started ... it does not feel real but it is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BOOYAH

BOOYAH
OHHHHHH YEAH
I AM IN A MYSPACE BLOG ...
Re-cap: Nikki and bro are good friends
After we put dakota down bro took me out for
a Night-o-fun ... Nikki was the ring-master
and bro was the clown that night hahahaha

Nikki and Bro being themselves
CRAZY FUN


SPINderella = ) BLOG

I CANT SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH
I CANT FUCKEN SLEEP....
Im stressed out ...
I have 2 pimple on my face ...
I have to get up for work in about 2 hrs....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DONT YOU JUST WISH YOU CAN JUST
STOP YOUR MIND FROM THINKING....
AHHHHHHHHHHHH STOP STOP STOP ... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Procrastination Sucks

Sunday .... ugh the day before Monday ... don't ya just hate both days. Sunday because ugh its totally the day before the first day of the week and work work work ..... Monday ohhh lord Mondays "its just another manic Monday" hahaha but whatever its all good =) because I was off all week last week... and if was a pretty uneventful week on my part... during the day that is because I really did nothing at all but at night whoohoohoo I hit the town =) .... but that is besides the point because I had a lot on my TO DO LIST and of course I didn't do any of it and now ahhhhhhhhhhh I am kicking myself in the ass because it was really 7 days of sitting on my ass doing jack ass shit when I could have done soooooooo damn much (god damn why didn't I take my car down for an oil change, clean the house like I have been meaning to, mow the damn forest of a lawn we have outside the list just goes on ) damn damn damn but o well its the past and I cant change that so I got to rest, do nothing, catch up on my movies, friends, and well me putting of my TO DO LIST just give me something to do after work during the week.....whoohoohoo!!

NEW MUST DO TO DO LIST
Monday
*Mow the damn lawn
*Go to pool place to test water
*Clean the pool
Tuesday
*unhook my desk top and take it apart
*Tidy up computer desk
*Clean guest room
Wednesday
*Clean house
*I AM TALKING CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN
Thursday
*RENT MOVIES from BLOCKBUSTER &
Watch them while doing all the Laundry
Friday-
*Come home
*DO nothing
*take a nap
*plan to go the fuck OUTTTTTT TONIGHT!!!

Maybe hahaha .. more like always hehehe

Everyone who knows me knows I use Noxzema to wash my face. Its sooooo crazy how many types of Noxzema they have on the shelves now.... NOXZEMA LINK.... I ran out of my face wash the other day so I had to run into the store and of course since I was in a hurry I bought the wrong kind....ugh ... after a few days of using the wrong gross one I had throw the one I just bought out and go back to the store to buy another one.... well I grabbed it and walked out.. that night when I was washing my face in the shower I noticed something new on it.. take a look ... I thought it was pretty cool...


HAHAHA MAYBE MOM WAS RIGHT ...
I almost shit my pants when I read that!!

ORDER IN THE COURT!!!

Order in the Court!

He laughed. He cried. He did Catskills stand-up shtick. The judge who presided, if you can call it that, over the Anna Nicole Smith case

Judge Larry Seidlin awarded custody of Smith’s remains to Dannielynn’s guardian, attorney Richard Milstein, who was given “sole and absolute discretion” to decide where Smith would be interred.

P.S. Didnt the judge look like an older FONZIE with no hair??

MISSING YOU

I MISSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUU
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH

HOME IS NOT THE SAME
NOTHING IS THE SAME ANYMORE
*Its toooo damn quiet
*No more responsibility's
*No more Vet Visits
*No more nightly walks
*No more fun floppy ears in the wind car rides
*No more dog park friends
*No more friendly greetings at the door
*No more barks that would scared the shit out of me
*No more driving up and looking in the front windows
*No more messy bed from laying on it
*No more PetSmart
*No more "buy toys for Dakota" thoughts
*No more black hair on my white tile
*No more dropping food on the floor and not having to pick it up
*No more eatting dindin and slipping you some food
*No more cold midnight peepee wake-ups
*No more ......
Lets just say this list is endless
I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOO DAMN MUCH!!

Stupid Shit I watch on TV

I just woke up and started channel surfing .... well I found something that caught my interest hahaha ... but I have to ask ....GOOD LORD WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME ... I am a dork!!!!

First it was the Anna Nicole Smith trial that I could not stop watching .... now I am at home up at the ass crack of dawn watching NASA TV...



At 5 a.m. EST, two crew members of the International Space Station will begin the fourth spacewalk in the last three weeks. During the six-hour spacewalk, Expedition 14 Commander Michael Lopez Alegria and Flight Engineer Mikhail Tyurin will work to free a stuck antenna on the Progress 23 supply spacecraft.

Watach Nasa TV Now

OFF THIS ENTIRE WEEK

I am off from work this week... ahhhh I am loving it.... finally a week of just me ... doing nothing at all... and just chilling... note to self catch up on movies at Blockbuster and also in theaters...whoohooohoo... but other than that I dont have anything really planned to do this week just relax and do nothing.

Today I did all my laundry ... cleaned my room.... cleaned our bathroom.... mopped downstairs.... and watched some movies..... hahaha just really a chill out day... god I love times like these. I think tomorrow the plan is to get an oil change and hit the beach. But haha nothing is set in stone so whooo the hell knows!!

ANNA NICOLE HEARING

WHAT WAS HER CAUSE OF DEATH?
WHO GETS CUSTODY OF HER BODY?
WHERE WILL SHE BE BURIED?
WHO IS DANNIELYNN'S FATHER?
WHO GETS ANNA NICOLES ESTATE?

Ohhhh lord help us all

OMG THE ANNA NICOLE HEARING IS A FUCKEN JOKE!!
Judge Larry Seidlin is such an asshole...

CNN