Merry X-mas & Happy B-day

December 25, 2005


Alyssa (Dudet)
Whoohoo

O god this is the end ... of the innocence haha

December 25 Christmas Day:
Called Alyssa in the early AM to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and told her to look outside of her house. At around 1am I drove to her house decorated it with balloons and a bunch of other shit ... (sorry dudet I bet it was a pain in the ass to clean up) hahaha GOT TO LOVE ME ... while I was decorating I saw three of her neighbors who must have thought I was a dork but I DONT CARE haha then I spent 30 mins throwing rocks to her window to wake her up so I could be the fist to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY ... yeah that did not work ... the girl sleeps like a log hahaha

Drove home went to sleep and woke Michael up to open open presents in the morning not at the ass crack of dawn more so around 9:30ish same as we would every year, he loved his gifts and was mad I spent as much money as I did on him, but WHATEVER hey I wanted to make this Christmas special for him so money was really not an issue :)!! Then we sat eat breakfast while we watched the Walt Disney World Parade, bummed around playing Poker (one if Michael's gifts was a poker table) and then got ready for Christmas DinDin. We left the house at 1:45pm and headed over to Alyssa's House. Her mom invited us over for Din Din :) .... it was not the same of course because dad is in Greece and Mom is not with us anymore but over all being with Friends who are really part family made up for it all!! Michael and I were thankful they invited us over !!

Over all like I said it was a good day. I was sad but I found a way to fight back the tears so many times.

Its almost over ... The one year mark is almost up.... They say it gets easier with time but in may ways I just feel like its gonna get harder as the days months as years pass by because really what I keep thinking is my mom is gonna miss so much that I really wanted to share with her!

Christmas PARTY

4 shots 4 girls
Alyssa, Danit, Jackie and ME :)



Dad was out of town so bro and I decided to have a Christmas Party on December 22 .... actually the politicly correct wording is Holiday Party but WHATEVER hahaha!! It went good the day was rushed only because I had to work till 2 and get home to get all the shit I needed to get together but over all it was a good/ FUN night. Alyssa got to meet Danit, Danit got to meet Alyssa and Jackie and no girls and no mattres in the hallway... I never got my kiss under the mistletoe.... I kissed a few guys but no one under the mistletoe ..... that was my mission of the night and a failed one at that!

The clean up was not at all bad ... it was not your typical college crew these people know how to respect other peoples stuff so that was a total plus :)!!

Happy Birthday Mom :(

Today was my moms birthday.

I miss her soooooo much!! It sucks how sometimes I dont know what I believe in!!!

Today has been the saddest day this entire year. I keep thinking about last year and how we all surprised her with a BIRTHDAY PARTY and everyone was there. In some ways we all knew something was gonna happen but really we all did not want to admit it. I have a Video Tape of her party but have not been strong enough to watch it ... It is so funny because I have always remembered my mom hating her birthday .. you know women when they get older they dont want to be reminded of being another year older hahaha but for the first time ever she had to smile on her birthday lol even if it was because everyone was here she had to smile .. I WONT EVER FORGET THAT :)!!

I miss her ... I miss her so much!! I cant stop crying or thinking about how she was so sick this time last year but so strong because she would never show the real side of her pain, fear, or sadness from the cancer!!

Well just because she is not here with us anymore does not mean I cant still celebrate this day as her day. Everyone has a day and from now until the day I die my mom will too!!


I MISS YOU MOM

DISNEY ROAD TRIP

Alyssa's Surprise DISNEY TRIP went sooooo great ... All went as planned and we had a blast. The embarrassing moments were classic and in my book this surprise literally takes the cake.

SUNDAY
I woke up early to wash Herbie and O yeah start the embarrassment .... Got paint for the windows and wrote on the back window "HONK!! B-day Girl onboard ... the first honk I got no lie I was like WTF hahaha then I was like O hey hahaha

GOT ON THE ROAD ABOUT NOON:30
The drive was fun
It started off down hill when dork (alyssa) left her CD's at home and about 20 miles into the start of being on the road we had to turn around lol at first I was like um yeah no way forget it they are left but then after thinking 4 hrs in a car with my shit ass CD's and no radio .. YEAH turning around was really the only option :)

The drive was long but fun totally full of singing ... yeah two girls in a car other than flirting what else can ya do on the road!! Well we got half way to Fort Pierce to pee and grab some grub but yeah when we saw the entire state of florida decided to stop at this service plaza it was a quick pee no grub and back on the road :) !!

We got to Orlando around 5:00 and after getting lost ... b/c orlando roads and directions suck ass ... I had to give in and call the hotel 2 times for directions and we finally made it ... getting us lost set us about 2 hrs behind schedule but no worries we made it up and I informed who I needed to inform at the hotel so Alyssa's Surprise would still be just that a surprise :)!!

First STOP:
DOWNTOWN DISNEY : Dinner was great I gave her the choice of restaurants and she picked the one I had called in advance for reservations and this was her first surprise :) and also first embarrassment of the trip!!

IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN ...the food was good, our waiter was a dork hahaha, but they brought her a cake with a 1 and 6 candle on it but since it was an upscale restaurant they could not sing to her so it was just the smile and make a wish blow :)!!

After dindin we were off to Pleasure Island ... note to the world Pleasure Island sucks during the week ... we walked around because the clubs were empty, I had a drink, we bought a few things, we took a BEST FRIEND Photo booth pic .. something I have always wanted to do :)!! I bought a Road Trip Disney Frame both both of us ... it was so perfect for this trip so yeah I had to :) because it said ROAD TRIP ON IT haha!!

After that we got HOT CHOCOLATE because who would have thought O-town gets cold in the winter hahaha I am talking cold cold cold ... dude no lie you can see your breath cold ... yeah us damn floridians are spoiled having no winter and then when we get a cold front in (71 degrees) we get out our winter shit hahahahaha .. all bundled up with flip-flops on hahahaha only in florida..... Well we got it and yeah HOT was not the word I burnt my taste buds that first night :) ... when they say HOT they mean FUCKEN HOT!! We took the courtesy bus back to the hotel and dont get me started on that long ass never ending smelly ride. Lets just say someone had some massive stank ass gas ..... I wont get into it but yeah it was long and bad ... ps no ventilation what so ever!!!!

When we got back to the hotel it was the surprise time .... I opened the door and whoohoohoo our room was all HAPPY BIRTHDAY decked out ... The hotel did a phenomenal job with the stuff I shipped to them. The balloons, party things, gifts, party hats it was HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALL AROUND US!! Alyssa was surprised and I was happy that all went so well and yes as planned!!

Then we both crashed :)

Monday:
The longest day ever
Wake-up call was at 6:30am ... ugh that early on vacation WTF were we thinking lol hey when you are with me you can sleep when you get home!!

We ate breakfast downstairs in the hotel and then it was off to the park ... we hit the Magic Kingdom first no lie got to ride all the rides we wanted to ride all in 3 hrs
Ate Lunch inside Disney where O yeah I had to embarrass her again ... lets just say this was the cherry on the weekend .. our waitress was the best .. and alyssa was totally embarrassed hahahaha they made her stand on top of the bench while everyone in the restaurant said happy birthday and blew her a kiss hahaha it was sooooo funny !!! O GOD I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THE PAYBACK ... but no lie it was sooo worth it :)!!

After that we hit Epcot for one ride but it was to long of a wait so we passed up Epcot and headed right for MGM ... it was fun we got to ride the tower of terror ... its different here in Florida from California but still fun .. we hit the Aerosmith ride ... that was FUCKEN GREAT .. .. then we watched FANTASMIC this laser lights show .... its sooo coooool I would recommend it to anyone :) .. its much different from California and also longer to. If and when you get a chance catch the show!!

Then after that show we hit the Magic Kingdom one more time just to catch the fireworks .... Ahhh I love that shit !! That is always my favorite part of going to Disney :)!!

We left the parks got to the hotel and turned in for the night

Tuesday
We made the drive home!!

Over all it was a great trip and all that I had planned went soooo well ... I hope Alyssa had as much fun as I did!!

Three Months Down

THREE MONTHS DOWN .... 9 MONTHS TO GO !!!

The year is almost over :(

Work has been sucking ass ... Its been busy busy busy at every job I have at the moment .... I am so tired all the time and somedays I ask myself WHAT THE F*#K am I doing???? I just have to keep busy because if not then all I do is think about is mom and get real upset. So in a way all this work is good because it keeps me occupied and is also giving me some much needed cash :)!!

I cant believe its DEC already .... OMG where did the year go .... Its so weird to say the year is almost over and as much as I want it to end I so dont ... in many ways I keep thinking damn this time last year mom it was moms last full month with us ... Thanksgiving in PHX , Black Friday (day after thanksgiving sales) , Moms last Birthday, Christmas and New Years. All of everyone's favorite days and yet my most feared days of all. I hate them all and every holiday this year did not seem like a holiday. All I did last year was pray she would get through the holidays and if anything were to happen it would be after all I just listed, but now I hate that my prayers were answered because it only makes it harder to remember mom not well this time last year ... the funny part about it is mom had her good and bad days but no matter how much pain she was in or how shitty she was feeling she would never show it. She was a strong woman and I miss her sooooooo much!!

I've hated the 5th of every month this year because I cant help but think its another month she has been gone. JAN 5th will her exactly 1 year.... one year I have spent without saying to my mom .... Hello, I love you, Good Night, See you later all those little words we all take for granted ... I guess that is why they all mean so much more to me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

work work work = /

sorry I have not posted in a while ... been busy with work work and more work. I have made it a priority to update at least every other day starting today so here I go.

To update you all I have been working in a cafeteria. I know I know a little different from the film industry but hey the money is good and I got to start saving so why not while I am still on my break from the industry. I go in around 5am and get off between noon or 2 depending how busy we are. I am cooking the food hahaha I know I know I cant cook but its mostly already prepped I just have to heat it up or add the sauce and grill it on the flat grill. Its easy at times but regardless how good the money is or how easy it is I do have to say I HATE THE FOOD INDUSTRY. After that I go home shower and get in about 2 hrs of sleep before I am off to baby-sit. I do that from around 5 to 10 or so. Then I head home again and change before I head to barnes and noble (the book store). I stock books after hrs for a few hours. Its been fun and hey the money is good so why not work since I have the time and are really up to nothing.

Also I need to keep busy because ever since Thanksgiving I have been thinking of mom so me being on the go all the time is a good thing. It keeps me going, but also keeps my mind on other things.

Dad is getting ready to go to greece. He leaves in 17 days :( I am sad he wont be around for the holidays but I think he needs to get away. It will do him some good to do that plus its the fist time he will spend a holiday with his family so he is excited about that. Bro and I are not sure what we are gonna do for Christmas or New Years probably nothing, but I will keep you posted.

As for all else not much else to share. The weather in FLA is so nice right now. I hope it stays like this because I love sweater weather :) but knowing florida it will be HOT HOT HOT by next week ... BUMMER DUDE ... Well that is all for now. I will be posting again very soon so till next time. Take care and stay warm :)!!

I'm out for now!!