A decision from a coin toss

Have you ever seen this movie




Two for the Money (2005)


I saw it the other day with Alyssa and let me tell you ... this one bathroom scene just blew me away .... it was just brilliant ..... from the writing, to the filming and even the outcome of making a decision over a coin toss was just wild and crazy but brilliant in my eyes.... he literally found his answer in the palm of his hand ... it was just a total masterpiece!!

What would you say if I told you I was gonna make the biggest decision of my life over a heads or tails coin toss.... would you think I was crazier than I already am ....hahaha dont answer that... come on you all ... I mean if you really think about it if it was meant to be then it was just meant to be... but I am talking literally finding the answer in the palm of your hands ... scary thought but more scary seeing how far you can really go and push the limit ... seeing if us an people , humans ... not just movie magic would really attempt fate and find and leave it all up to a coin toss.... I have to wonder would we chicken out and pull a best out of three toss... maybe even call tails just because its a known fact that tails never fails (coins are made uneven and heads is a heavier side so it pulls the coin down leaving tails at a face up ... try it ... filp a coin 5 times and let it fall on the carpet counting out of five times how many times tails comes up) ... or maybe even after all the safety nets we have pulled with the unknown coin toss we scratch the whole fate in the palm of the hand idea and just reevaluate the good and the bad of a decision.

Its a crazy idea but one I think I am willing to take ... call and or will we as people test fate and make the most important decision of our lives over a coin toss, and follow through with outcome of the toss pushing the limits of new decision making and testing so call fate or would we (I) chicken out??

I think one time in our lives we should just try it ... see what happens .... see what comes up... do the outcome of the flip and deal with the conscious later.... not always playing life safe or with a plan. Giving fate a try and seeing how far we will really take this idea!

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JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS, YEARS !!



"I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough
to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride,
let it fall like rain"





"Its just day to day tryin' to make ends meet
What id give for an address on easy street
I need a deep margarita to help me unwind
Leave my troubles behind..."

GET WELL DUDET

HAPPY EASTER TO ME

THIS PAST SUNDAY ... GREEK EASTER :)
HAPPY EASTER TO ME



Traditions this year were broken ... omg for the first time in 26 years I dropped the ball with greek cookies, red eggs, green bread, and greek mass.... yeah we all know mom is so turning in her grave right now, but hey whats done is done .. I had a choice to make and I made it so I have to live with what I decided to do!

As for all else holly shit for all of you who know me you know it was a bad two weeks. Talk about emotions running wild ... yeah I got Herman on sunday I bet you are all doing the happy dance hahaha but my emotions were not all from herman it was more from missing mom. I think this year its hitting me soooo much more than ever before that she is gone.... I have said that in a few other blogs but really I cant tell you how much I miss her ..... I miss the little things the most and cant stop thinking about her. Plus it does not help that everywhere I look something reminds me of her ....... AHHHHHHHHHHHH ... I hate it ...... I dont want to feel like this but I guess its just the grieving process that is catching up to me. Sometimes ... well ....most of the time I avoid things but lol you think after all the bad that has come from it I would learn my lesson hahaha nope never learned my lesson on avoiding crap ... the fact is that what you avoid will one day catch up to you .... yeah it has ... it all fucken has!!!!!!!!!

Short weekend version
-Did not have time to make greek cookies this month.......
fuck if I only had one more week
-Greek mass ... planned on going with alyssa ... damn Murphy's law ... she got real sick .... .I could not go alone so I decided to go to her house and try to cheer her up and spend the sick night with her!!! Yeah me in a room with a girl vomiting ... THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR hehe!

Whoohoo VEET

VEET® WORKS it really WORKS!! Its not the best shit ever but for a quick soft longer lasting fix its well worth it!! Its been 4 days since I have shaved whoohoohoo IM LOVING IT hehe!! So I have to give it an 8 it would have gotten a 10 but the smell took it down two points .... why cant they make bad shit smell like coconut hehe!!

VEET ... test :)

Ok you all so you are gonna laugh out loud about this one .... I am a sucker ... not really but yeah when something intrigues me I have to see one if it works and two how the fuck this is really possible !! Ok so I am watching TV one night around 2:30 in the AM ... usually its the Disney channel haha and we all know its because nothing scary goes on the disney channel but this time around it was not .. I was watching the History Channel ... dont knock it yet .... they were talking about the Bermuda triangle ... anyway I am a commercial watcher because sometimes I am like omg that was so funny (brilliant) and other times I was like who the hell invested in this shit ... Well this VEET® commercial came on .. its a bladeless shaving kit hahaha we have all seen them and have also heard of NAIR .... anyway I was like dude I am so gonna try this shit out ... hey it cant hurt ... I hate shaving and NAIR so sucks ass so why not try something new on the market ... I did my research hahaha yes I did and found nothing bad on the product so I hit the mart and purchased it ... I just tried it out on a part of my leg ... haha yeah a part of it no way was I gonna hit the whole leg ... anyway ... it smells so bad ... BLAHHHHHH... and when I started to put it on I was like THIS SHIT IS NOT GONNA WORK I SHOULD HAVE PUT MY 6 BUCKS INTO MY NYC FUND, but after 6 min ... it actually says MIN 3 MAX 6 and since I am greek I opted with 6 it is not to bad ... I am gonna do my legs friday night to see how long this shit really last so I will fill you in then on this new product!

As for the purchase I can say it was 6 bucks :) well spent ... the only down fall is the smell ... damn why cant they add a coconut sent to this shit ... make it less smelly ... but other than that it seems to work A OK !!

Check out the link VEET®

"I cried"

When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13, she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, she quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART. If you love your MOM, repost this bulletin saying "i cried" if you don't... then u obviosly don't care if your mom dies

Behind every band is a story

MOM YOU ARE SO MISSED

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You never know what you have till its long gone!!!!
Cherish every min of every day with the ones you love because one day you are gonna wish you had just one more min with them!

SHOCK WAVE

A shock wave hit me today....... I feel like I have no control and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs but no one hears me. I feel when I talk and no one understands the words that are coming out of my mouth. Its like I'm speaking a foreign tongue and no one cares to learn it. I'm pissed, upset, lethargic from all, but most of all so SAD =,( ... Worst off I feel alone.... I feel like I'm not the person I usually am..... I want to be loved and admired for the person people know me to be, but ever min of every day I feel more and more of a change coming on!
Sometimes we change for the good but other times we change for the bad ..... is this change for other people or really for myself ....WTF WHY CANT WE ALL JUST BE WHO WE WANT TO BE ... why do we always have to hide behind a mask, a lie, our feelings, even our heart???

I just want one week to go my way ... one week of not worrying about the world or anyone in it ... one week all to myself ... is that really to much to ask for????????? I guess it is because I have been waiting patiently for that one week since Jan 1st and it still has not come my way!! I guess it is to much to ask for ... even for me!!!

IM FINE
Chrissie

7 months down 5 more to go

7 months Down 5 left to go
COME HOME SAFE CHRIS


Its almost time for his 1/2 way leave!!!!
2 weeks of some much needed R&R and family time!!
We will know the dates in a few days!

My mother taught me :)

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL..
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4. My mother taught me LOGIC.
" Because I said so, that's why."

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way!"

19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

20. My mother taught me HUMOR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And my favorite: My mother taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!

Stupid people I tell you!!

I am blogging from my cell lol dont ya just love Technology :) it is fucken great but sometimes people are just fucken stupid! Asshole guy at work two days in a row... OMG KILL ME!!!

::::WORK Sat Day 1::::
Asshole: Hello I heard about your mom my condolences go out to you and your family
Me: Thank you I start to walk away

I start to walk away

Asshole: Wait a min I have a question
Me: Yes

Asshole: How do you cope??
Me: WHAT?!?!?!

Asshole: How do you cope with what happened ??
Me: Ummm I dont know I really dont have a choice now do I

Asshole: No how do you cope with your mom being gone?? Dont you just have the urge to want to pick up the phone and call her at times when something happens, to just talk, or have something on your mind?
Me: Ummmm im sorry this conversation is over now I am not gonna talk about this with you!
Then I walk away
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::::WORK Sun Day 2::::
Asshole: Hello

he grabs my arm

Asshole: Do you ever think of your mom still and forget she is not here?
Me:WHAT?!?!?!

Asshole: Do you forget she has passed away
Me: Ummm no

Asshole: I heard she has cancer was it a quick death or slow drawn out one?
Me: WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM ASSHOKE??

Asshole: Ever wish you could have one wish to bring her back and ride her of all pain?
Me: OMG GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!!! ARE YOU FUCKEN STUPID?? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO ASK ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY MOM??

Asshole: I just want to know to be prepared
Me: GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why cant I ?!?!?!

Some days I wish I could just be selfish ... really only think of myself and not have a worry in the world about anyone or anything .... really use the meaning to the song HAKUNAMATATA .... What is sooooo fucked up about all of that is no matter how pissed off I get, how hurt my feels are, how sad I am at times, or even how worried I am about the future family and friends..... I CANT be selfish even if I try.

You would think after 26 years of getting stepped on, used, and walked right over with no one ever looking back to make sure I was ok or even see how I am doing .... I would have learned to put myself first rather than other people but I have not learned from this lesson.... I have to wonder when I will learn and if and when I do learn will it all be tooooo damn late.. because that is what happens ... you learn you lesson after the fact so its really to late to change anything .... I guess all I have to say about that is ... STUPID ME!!!!

I AM GOING TO HELL

SUNDAY Night

Alyssa got off the bus and went right home with me

THE PLAN, THE LIE, THE COVER UP, THE THOUGHT OF YEAH IM GOING TO HELL!!!

9:00pm THE PLAN
Dinner and I NEED A DRINK ... something strong as hell and just forget about all the drama this weekend .... we decided on Carolina Ale House .. the food was the best last time we went and they are the only place SUNDAY NIGHTS that are open till 2am so we really had no choice ..... Waiter (cute youngin) Steve ... asked us what we wanted to drink ... I ordered first in case they carded us ... CAROLINA HURRICANE .... he then looked at dudet ... she said the same ... he brought them and then I asked for 3 KAMIKAZE SHOTS ... Lets just say for the first time ever dudet got buzzed hahaha and a bit drunk but she wont admit it hehe!!

5:am Wake up call
We were up all night ... well I was ... its that fear of being soooo damn tired that you are so not gonna hear your alarm so just stay up and wait the night out haha ... the plan for the day ... she told her mom she was gonna work with me but in stead drop me off and then go to her boyfriends house to spend the day with him then pick me up from work around 2pm

COVER UP
11:am Phone call to mom saying we are gonna start lunch soon and she was just checking in

2:am she picked me up and my tips made that day was 150.00 so I gave her 70.00 so it looked like my boss paid her to work in case her mom asked

4:pm Dropped her off at home

4:01pm to FOREVER and a day
THE GUILT, THE LIE, THE THOUGHT OF HOLLY SHIT ONE DAY THE TRUTH WILL COME OUT but holly shit IT WILL NOT SET ME FREE!!!

Note to self ... my daughter will never have a 26 year old friend ... hell no lol over my dead body!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOME SWEET HOME :)

Ok so we are back ... whoohoohoo ... FLANAGAN HIGH SCHOOL NJROTC came in fourth in the nation ... not what they were looking for but they still did good some of the schools were fucken great but when it comes to competitions its all about if you are having a good, or bad min, hr, day , week and even month .......... I think Flanagan did really good I saw all Alyssa competed in and she kicked fucken ass ... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU DUDET !! ...
Click on the link :) NJROTC Nationals Results
Ok short Version of this trip:
Day 1
Drive up- long ass 10 hr drive and for about 8 hrs all we did was listen to LEARN FRENCH on CD.... yeah good lord is right!!
Hotel- stayed with Alyssa's mom ... damn yo no using the line ... want to come back to my hotel room hahaha
Dinner - embarrassing moment that I took great part in video taping because yeah singing with mom about motivation and dedication with a paper in my hand because I could not remember that shit was not my cup of tea hahaha so I snuck out of that hehe!!
Night one- Alyssa's roommates are the fucken funniest girls ever ... hahaha wow I have to admit they totally topped me in classic moments and just a fucken good time .... I met my match people :)!!

Day 2
THE BET:
Alyssa walked up to me when we parked on Base to tell me that I had to flirt with and get 3 dudes phone numbers ... lol YEAH right is right!!

Grub: this dude was sitting all alone hahaha I lol and so asked him if he wanted company ... totally out of character but what the fuck ... nice kid ... talked to him for about 15 min or so till he had to go ... he has a myspace but I have not friended him yet ... ???MESSAGE TO HIM: yeah I am chrissie I felt bad you were sitting alone so I joined you for a 15 min convo .... lol NO WAY IN HELL .. I dont have the balls to!!

Not gonna stretch out the day by telling you all I did because it was a long day but alyssa kicked assssssssssss !!! OMG she rocked this shit!! Hats off to ya dudet for totally pulling all you had to do off and also giving your heart and 110% of dedication!!

Day 3
They came in 4th ... bitter sweet ... wish they would have won but really other school were just fucken stronger ... I think if other people gave a little more Flanagan would have pulled it off but o well you live and learn!!

Day 4
HOME SWEET HOME ... pulled in at 8:30pm and good lord was this the longest drive home of my life ... just sooo glad to be home!

Dudets Competition :)

I will be Missing In Action (MIA) from the 5th to the 9th because this weekend is Alyssa's last JROTC competition .... this is the whole enchilada you all .... its NATIONALS so schools from around the US get together to see who is the shit!!! Its actually my first and last ... first being never been to one of her competitions before and last meaning I am off to NY this summer and she is 99.9% sure she will not be in ROTC next year but even if she is I wont be able to make it so its all bitter sweet.

NJROTC Nationals Home page

Its in Pensacola on a Navy base and whoohoohoo you know what that means .... hotties galore hahaha (NOTE TO SELF BEHAVE) anyway I am so stoked you just dont know ... I got T shirts made hahaha yeah total embarrassment but WHATEVER I dont give a shit ... and yes I know payback is a bitch ... O god I am so never gonna get married for the sole reason of not having to have a bachelorett party .... good lord .... (Note to all my friends: Sorry for all the embarrassing moments I thought of and put you through ... ok ok ok not really sorry lol because they were all lol classic funny hysterical moments for me hehehehe but dont I get some brownie points for the creativity I put into those funny times for me hehe) .... ok back to the shirts .... I hope she likes them omg it took me forever to think of what I was gonna put on them .... but what I thought of was soooo perfect so its all good!!

I am not looking forward to the drive to Pensacola ... ahhhhhhh could this be any farther to the top and left of FLA ... damn florida why does this state have to be so fucken long ... the drive is the worst ever ... soo damn boring ... to top it off I am in a car with adults ... yeah pity me please because I am sure I am gonna need a drink after this drive / trip! Its almost 3:30am and the BUS well family car leaves at 3:45 so wish her (alyssa) luck and also me with this hell of a long as shit ass florida drive with all padres in the care :/!!

Well like I said I cant wait and I hope they win but if anything happens and they dont win its all good I will still be glad I got to see her in action .... whoohoooo KICK ASS DUDET!