Merry X-mas & Happy B-day

December 25, 2005


Alyssa (Dudet)
Whoohoo

O god this is the end ... of the innocence haha

December 25 Christmas Day:
Called Alyssa in the early AM to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and told her to look outside of her house. At around 1am I drove to her house decorated it with balloons and a bunch of other shit ... (sorry dudet I bet it was a pain in the ass to clean up) hahaha GOT TO LOVE ME ... while I was decorating I saw three of her neighbors who must have thought I was a dork but I DONT CARE haha then I spent 30 mins throwing rocks to her window to wake her up so I could be the fist to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY ... yeah that did not work ... the girl sleeps like a log hahaha

Drove home went to sleep and woke Michael up to open open presents in the morning not at the ass crack of dawn more so around 9:30ish same as we would every year, he loved his gifts and was mad I spent as much money as I did on him, but WHATEVER hey I wanted to make this Christmas special for him so money was really not an issue :)!! Then we sat eat breakfast while we watched the Walt Disney World Parade, bummed around playing Poker (one if Michael's gifts was a poker table) and then got ready for Christmas DinDin. We left the house at 1:45pm and headed over to Alyssa's House. Her mom invited us over for Din Din :) .... it was not the same of course because dad is in Greece and Mom is not with us anymore but over all being with Friends who are really part family made up for it all!! Michael and I were thankful they invited us over !!

Over all like I said it was a good day. I was sad but I found a way to fight back the tears so many times.

Its almost over ... The one year mark is almost up.... They say it gets easier with time but in may ways I just feel like its gonna get harder as the days months as years pass by because really what I keep thinking is my mom is gonna miss so much that I really wanted to share with her!

Christmas PARTY

4 shots 4 girls
Alyssa, Danit, Jackie and ME :)



Dad was out of town so bro and I decided to have a Christmas Party on December 22 .... actually the politicly correct wording is Holiday Party but WHATEVER hahaha!! It went good the day was rushed only because I had to work till 2 and get home to get all the shit I needed to get together but over all it was a good/ FUN night. Alyssa got to meet Danit, Danit got to meet Alyssa and Jackie and no girls and no mattres in the hallway... I never got my kiss under the mistletoe.... I kissed a few guys but no one under the mistletoe ..... that was my mission of the night and a failed one at that!

The clean up was not at all bad ... it was not your typical college crew these people know how to respect other peoples stuff so that was a total plus :)!!

Happy Birthday Mom :(

Today was my moms birthday.

I miss her soooooo much!! It sucks how sometimes I dont know what I believe in!!!

Today has been the saddest day this entire year. I keep thinking about last year and how we all surprised her with a BIRTHDAY PARTY and everyone was there. In some ways we all knew something was gonna happen but really we all did not want to admit it. I have a Video Tape of her party but have not been strong enough to watch it ... It is so funny because I have always remembered my mom hating her birthday .. you know women when they get older they dont want to be reminded of being another year older hahaha but for the first time ever she had to smile on her birthday lol even if it was because everyone was here she had to smile .. I WONT EVER FORGET THAT :)!!

I miss her ... I miss her so much!! I cant stop crying or thinking about how she was so sick this time last year but so strong because she would never show the real side of her pain, fear, or sadness from the cancer!!

Well just because she is not here with us anymore does not mean I cant still celebrate this day as her day. Everyone has a day and from now until the day I die my mom will too!!


I MISS YOU MOM

DISNEY ROAD TRIP

Alyssa's Surprise DISNEY TRIP went sooooo great ... All went as planned and we had a blast. The embarrassing moments were classic and in my book this surprise literally takes the cake.

SUNDAY
I woke up early to wash Herbie and O yeah start the embarrassment .... Got paint for the windows and wrote on the back window "HONK!! B-day Girl onboard ... the first honk I got no lie I was like WTF hahaha then I was like O hey hahaha

GOT ON THE ROAD ABOUT NOON:30
The drive was fun
It started off down hill when dork (alyssa) left her CD's at home and about 20 miles into the start of being on the road we had to turn around lol at first I was like um yeah no way forget it they are left but then after thinking 4 hrs in a car with my shit ass CD's and no radio .. YEAH turning around was really the only option :)

The drive was long but fun totally full of singing ... yeah two girls in a car other than flirting what else can ya do on the road!! Well we got half way to Fort Pierce to pee and grab some grub but yeah when we saw the entire state of florida decided to stop at this service plaza it was a quick pee no grub and back on the road :) !!

We got to Orlando around 5:00 and after getting lost ... b/c orlando roads and directions suck ass ... I had to give in and call the hotel 2 times for directions and we finally made it ... getting us lost set us about 2 hrs behind schedule but no worries we made it up and I informed who I needed to inform at the hotel so Alyssa's Surprise would still be just that a surprise :)!!

First STOP:
DOWNTOWN DISNEY : Dinner was great I gave her the choice of restaurants and she picked the one I had called in advance for reservations and this was her first surprise :) and also first embarrassment of the trip!!

IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN ...the food was good, our waiter was a dork hahaha, but they brought her a cake with a 1 and 6 candle on it but since it was an upscale restaurant they could not sing to her so it was just the smile and make a wish blow :)!!

After dindin we were off to Pleasure Island ... note to the world Pleasure Island sucks during the week ... we walked around because the clubs were empty, I had a drink, we bought a few things, we took a BEST FRIEND Photo booth pic .. something I have always wanted to do :)!! I bought a Road Trip Disney Frame both both of us ... it was so perfect for this trip so yeah I had to :) because it said ROAD TRIP ON IT haha!!

After that we got HOT CHOCOLATE because who would have thought O-town gets cold in the winter hahaha I am talking cold cold cold ... dude no lie you can see your breath cold ... yeah us damn floridians are spoiled having no winter and then when we get a cold front in (71 degrees) we get out our winter shit hahahahaha .. all bundled up with flip-flops on hahahaha only in florida..... Well we got it and yeah HOT was not the word I burnt my taste buds that first night :) ... when they say HOT they mean FUCKEN HOT!! We took the courtesy bus back to the hotel and dont get me started on that long ass never ending smelly ride. Lets just say someone had some massive stank ass gas ..... I wont get into it but yeah it was long and bad ... ps no ventilation what so ever!!!!

When we got back to the hotel it was the surprise time .... I opened the door and whoohoohoo our room was all HAPPY BIRTHDAY decked out ... The hotel did a phenomenal job with the stuff I shipped to them. The balloons, party things, gifts, party hats it was HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALL AROUND US!! Alyssa was surprised and I was happy that all went so well and yes as planned!!

Then we both crashed :)

Monday:
The longest day ever
Wake-up call was at 6:30am ... ugh that early on vacation WTF were we thinking lol hey when you are with me you can sleep when you get home!!

We ate breakfast downstairs in the hotel and then it was off to the park ... we hit the Magic Kingdom first no lie got to ride all the rides we wanted to ride all in 3 hrs
Ate Lunch inside Disney where O yeah I had to embarrass her again ... lets just say this was the cherry on the weekend .. our waitress was the best .. and alyssa was totally embarrassed hahahaha they made her stand on top of the bench while everyone in the restaurant said happy birthday and blew her a kiss hahaha it was sooooo funny !!! O GOD I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THE PAYBACK ... but no lie it was sooo worth it :)!!

After that we hit Epcot for one ride but it was to long of a wait so we passed up Epcot and headed right for MGM ... it was fun we got to ride the tower of terror ... its different here in Florida from California but still fun .. we hit the Aerosmith ride ... that was FUCKEN GREAT .. .. then we watched FANTASMIC this laser lights show .... its sooo coooool I would recommend it to anyone :) .. its much different from California and also longer to. If and when you get a chance catch the show!!

Then after that show we hit the Magic Kingdom one more time just to catch the fireworks .... Ahhh I love that shit !! That is always my favorite part of going to Disney :)!!

We left the parks got to the hotel and turned in for the night

Tuesday
We made the drive home!!

Over all it was a great trip and all that I had planned went soooo well ... I hope Alyssa had as much fun as I did!!

Three Months Down

THREE MONTHS DOWN .... 9 MONTHS TO GO !!!

The year is almost over :(

Work has been sucking ass ... Its been busy busy busy at every job I have at the moment .... I am so tired all the time and somedays I ask myself WHAT THE F*#K am I doing???? I just have to keep busy because if not then all I do is think about is mom and get real upset. So in a way all this work is good because it keeps me occupied and is also giving me some much needed cash :)!!

I cant believe its DEC already .... OMG where did the year go .... Its so weird to say the year is almost over and as much as I want it to end I so dont ... in many ways I keep thinking damn this time last year mom it was moms last full month with us ... Thanksgiving in PHX , Black Friday (day after thanksgiving sales) , Moms last Birthday, Christmas and New Years. All of everyone's favorite days and yet my most feared days of all. I hate them all and every holiday this year did not seem like a holiday. All I did last year was pray she would get through the holidays and if anything were to happen it would be after all I just listed, but now I hate that my prayers were answered because it only makes it harder to remember mom not well this time last year ... the funny part about it is mom had her good and bad days but no matter how much pain she was in or how shitty she was feeling she would never show it. She was a strong woman and I miss her sooooooo much!!

I've hated the 5th of every month this year because I cant help but think its another month she has been gone. JAN 5th will her exactly 1 year.... one year I have spent without saying to my mom .... Hello, I love you, Good Night, See you later all those little words we all take for granted ... I guess that is why they all mean so much more to me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

work work work = /

sorry I have not posted in a while ... been busy with work work and more work. I have made it a priority to update at least every other day starting today so here I go.

To update you all I have been working in a cafeteria. I know I know a little different from the film industry but hey the money is good and I got to start saving so why not while I am still on my break from the industry. I go in around 5am and get off between noon or 2 depending how busy we are. I am cooking the food hahaha I know I know I cant cook but its mostly already prepped I just have to heat it up or add the sauce and grill it on the flat grill. Its easy at times but regardless how good the money is or how easy it is I do have to say I HATE THE FOOD INDUSTRY. After that I go home shower and get in about 2 hrs of sleep before I am off to baby-sit. I do that from around 5 to 10 or so. Then I head home again and change before I head to barnes and noble (the book store). I stock books after hrs for a few hours. Its been fun and hey the money is good so why not work since I have the time and are really up to nothing.

Also I need to keep busy because ever since Thanksgiving I have been thinking of mom so me being on the go all the time is a good thing. It keeps me going, but also keeps my mind on other things.

Dad is getting ready to go to greece. He leaves in 17 days :( I am sad he wont be around for the holidays but I think he needs to get away. It will do him some good to do that plus its the fist time he will spend a holiday with his family so he is excited about that. Bro and I are not sure what we are gonna do for Christmas or New Years probably nothing, but I will keep you posted.

As for all else not much else to share. The weather in FLA is so nice right now. I hope it stays like this because I love sweater weather :) but knowing florida it will be HOT HOT HOT by next week ... BUMMER DUDE ... Well that is all for now. I will be posting again very soon so till next time. Take care and stay warm :)!!

I'm out for now!!

Happy 21st Birthday Chris

O YEAH 21 ... all I have to say is

Who knows how long this will last
Now we’ve come so far, so fast
But, somewhere back there in the dust
That same small town in each of us
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

2 Months Down

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... Nov18th 2005 ....
2 Months down
10 more to go for Chris


Lets keep him in our prayers!!

Slow week & Congrats friend

Money is Low $0.00 in my checking account
Family is on my ass "NEED TO GET A JOB"
Bills need to be paid (cell phone, herbie payment, credit card and health ins)
Not ready to work in the industry yet (WTF is my problem)

BUT OVER ALL I CAN SAY
WHOOHOOHOOO
I AM LIVING MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST :)

So yeah I have been looking for a job the past 2 months and every time I get a call back the most famous line I hear is ..... " You are to over qualified" ... to over qualified to run a cash register or make coffee .. yeah WTF is that about?!?!?!? I have to wonder if its because I have a college degree or because I have literally worked all over the place... umm lets think for a min .... yeah cant decide .... but fuck them all!! So yeah no luck in the job hunting department yet but no worries something will come along.

The week has been a slow one so far and its only TUESDAY ... I got its taking forever to go by but I am entertaining myself with movies, movies and O wait did I mention movies. Yeah what an uneventful life I must say!! O well WHATEVER thats all that is on my agenda till I find work.

I started working out again ... been slacking for a while now a long while ....so I said thats it hahah..... One week ago I started to bike every other day and now I am gonna start to run again because biking is a pain in the ass due to the sidewalks still cover with shit from Hurricane Wilma so I have to bike on the road which I dont like because yes I am scared of crazy ass florida drivers so I have decided to run. Lets see if I can get back into the everyday thing again!! My motivation is still up on the wall yes my REESES BIG CUP has not been busted into yet :) so I know if I can walk by that every day I can start running again every day ... ok ok ok SAT will be my one day off :) hey we all need a day of R&R :)!!!

Well I am out of here for now :)!!
TAKE CARE AND I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED ON MY JOB HUNT!


P.S> A friend just earned her way onto my calendar and into my POST
November 15th 2005 early early in the AM
First BJ ever and she swallowed
ewwww gross I know ..... so I wont elaborate on that :)

YOU HAVE JUST EARNED YOUR FIRST BJ CONGRATS
3===D~~~~
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!

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Laid Back FUN-o-RAMA Weekend

It was a crazy weekend :)!! Alyssa's mom was out of town so we hung out all weekend. Did not have anything planned just really chilled out.

FRIDAY:
It was a slow day. We drove around and also went to BASS PRO SHOP and OMG talk about HOTTIES GALORE ... it was like ATTN ATTN SINGLES IN THE HOUSE !!! NO lie hottie vill is literally down the street from me ... you bet I am gonna make myself know at this new hottie central station :) !! While we were at hottie vill I came up with this brilliant idea to take Alyssa fishing ... salt water that is.. so we bought what we needed even the gross frozen squid to do this, but when I got home (back to my house) to get the fishing rods dad could not find them. We hit a few store to find a cheep rod and yeah finally at 9pm at night we found one at WALMART for 19.99 (YOU GO GIRL). Anyway after we found it I was like yeah ok this rod is like 12 feet and I own a VW bug. I will leave that up to your imagination on how we got the rod home. It was funny!!

When I told Alyssa what time we were gonna leave the house (6:30am) she had a shit attack so that finshing plan was a bust. We opted to hit Fort Lauderdale Beach that morning. No worries now we have a rod for another day!!

SAT:
Alyssa so pleasantly jumped on my bed to wake me up. DAMN THAT KID!! We got up and headed over to the beach making a few stops on the way ... CVS for tanning lotion, and this gas station for the best pastries ever...yummy :)... Then it was FUN IN THE SUN!!

Ok note to all ... I hate the beach ... yes I surf and love the ocean but when it comes to just laying out and doing nothing I cant do that . I have to always be on the go .... I was mad I left the football :( .... Well we got to the beach laid out the blanket and noticed this guy (we have now named PERVERT BOB) was taking pictures of girls... yes you read right taking pictures of girls... it was gross but funny at the same time lol for me that is because I did not have a swimsuit so I hadshorts and a Tshirt on while Alyssa was in a bikini hahaha ok ok ok we just had to deal with it because we were in a public place, but it was still gross ... pervert Bob was on our shit list that day!!

After a few hours in the sun, and trying to avoid pervert bob taking pictures of us we decided to walk Fort Lauderdale Strip. That alone was full of entertainment. We saw this Tshirt (inside joke F U), went into a smoothie place, checked out a tattoo shop (just looked nothing was done), and then hit Beach Place. After our walk down the strip we headed back and made the drive home.

When we got home, we showered, ate dindin (Alyssa cooked and it was soooo good) it was something new with beef in it but OMG to die for!! After that we ran back to my house to walk dakota then headed over to Muvico (a theater) to catch a flix ... DERAILED..... Yeah note to all that movie was an intense one, but at the same time a good one. Great writing I must add and the acting was phenomenal :)!! Top 5 on my movie list this year but keep in mind it was an INTENSE MOVIE!!

After the movie the youngin (alyssa) wanted to be a rebel but I was good and we both came right home! It was about 9:30pm and we just pissed the night away.

SUNDAY:
Ahhhh payback is a bitch ... her 8am wake up was harsh hahaha I had to laugh and draged her young ass out of bed to go out for breakfast. After waking her up and rushing her out of the house we had a 45 mins wait and now I have come to the conclusion that The Cracker Barrel is always busy.Yeah she was not to happy but I was not gonna drive to another place so we just sat around and then when a checkers table opened up I kicked her ass. Ok Ok Ok that was a lie the first game had to end because we blocked each other in, and the second game we could not finished because they called our name so no winner. I must say she has been my biggest challenge so far, but dont worry we will have to continue that game so I can post WHOOHOOO I AM A WINNER!!

After breakfast we went back to her house, cleaned the house up after the big ass 3 day mess we made, and then watched TV.

Over all it was a laid back slow weekend but a fun one at that because Murphy's Law never came into play!

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Missing Mom

Nov 5th 2005

Every month it seems to get easier and easier but in reality its only easier when I keep myself busy because the days I am not busy all I think about is mom. Somtimes it does not feel real, and other times it hits me like a ton of bricks that she is gone .. GONE FOREVER!! Is that normal I keep asking myself??? I sure hope so if not then I am going insane!!!

Days go by and things happen in my life, but its still another day without my mom

MISS YOU MOM!!

PostSecret

Happy 2005 Halloween

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

xoxo Chrissie

AFTER WILMA

Me outside during the storm

Sunday Night after I blogged the weather got really bad!! I was like O SHIT!!

Mon Morning it was holly shit KISS YOUR ASS GOOD-BYE type is shit going on with the weather. Our power went out around 6:30 am then from then on it was just horrible. We closed out shutters the night before so all was good but still I hate shutters you feel so lost because you can see anything that is going on outside. The worst part of anything is being able to hear shit but not seeing it.

During the hurricane I opened my shutter just to see what was going on and all you see were roof tiles all over the place so I ran outside. Yeah I did not care if I got hit I needed to make sure my car was ok :) so I ran outside and moved my car back away from the house!! Then I moved my dads car back but his car had gotten hit. Not bad INS will totally cover it but it still got hit. That was about 7am and we were not in the clear till around noon. During the time I was in and out of the house. It was crazy but we still had to see the damage that was going on.

Curiosity gets the best of you at times!!

At around noon the clean up started to begin. It was bad trees were down, cars were wrecked, fences were just mangled, and people were just devastated but all ok.

After I helped my dad clean the house up I went around the hood and started to help other people.

After a few hours of that I decided to run over to Alyssa's house to make sure all was ok and it was. She came home with me and we camped out under the stars Mon night. It was so beautiful the amount of stars that were shinning in the sky was just fucken amazing!!

Tues
NO WATER NO POWER NO ANYTHING ... I Could never live like this .... Yeah to all you Amish people FUCK THAT SHIT!!

Wed
Everyone the past 3 days were in bed by 8 no lie during an outage you only have a limit amount of things you can do to entertain yourself. I would not be surprised if 9 months from now you see Florida with a record of babies being born.

Thurs
Our Power finally came on ... it came on then went out and then came back on thank god!! I feel sorry for all those people who still dont have power!!

Good Night for now Wilma

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE

The weather is still nice outside .... a little wind but nothing serious ... nothing in the range of hurricane force winds ... DAMN THE NEWS... DAMN YOU WEATHER PEOPLE .... Just turned the TV on and guess what .... yes news ... more news ... the same news... more of the same shit news for the past 5 days ...... O god the hurricane is traveling so slow!! Wow I dont know hot much of this I can take and lol its only been what 6 hrs since I have been indoors. Ok I can never do anything bad to ever had to go to jail. I would find a way to kill myself if I had to live in an inclosed area for a long time ... long time for me meaning 1 day haha.

Ok well I am off to surf the net for a while before I hit the sack .....

ZzzzZzzzZzz (-.-)

ahhh I can hear my pillow calling my name!!! I am so tired and for the record I did my good deeds the past few days for the rest of my life..... Hurricane Shutters Suck...... I helped a total of 4 people put shutters up for this hurricane (WILMA) so I better see some mailboxes missing.... I am talking I want to see a mailbox fly through the air!! Yes you read right and yes I dont care I better see some impressing damage .... come on at least give me something from this hurricane if I had to help put shutters on 4 different homes!!!

PEACE OUT FOR NOW

P.S.> Alyssa I am so proud of you whoohoohoo you kicked ass today on the ladder putting shutters up ... you go girl ... yeah 2005 is a woman's world... sorry guys looks like we are so moving on up!!!

P.P.S>Dudet the posted time on this blog was just for you :)

WHAT TO DO (During a Hurricane)

To Do List

During A Hurricane

Work out- Get real tired before the storm
Digital Camera- Sometimes you just have to capture the moment
Food- Yes this is the time to eat and get fat from junk food
News- Avoid it the repetitiveness will drive you crazy
Internet- Have a laptop on hand that is your savior
Charge Cell- O yeah your life line to the outside world
Movies- Have lots on hand
AC- Crank that Bitch DOWN as low as it can go just in case

Now If Power Goes Out During A Hurricane
HOLLY SHIT is you new bestfriend phrase!!

Candles - Ahhhh lol time for puppet fun
Alcohol- Get piss ass drunk to piss the day or night away
(that goes either way power on or off)
Chips and Salsa- HELL YEAH its a drinking power out rule
Portable DVD player- Best invention but only last for 2 movies so pick good ones
Family Stress- EARMUFFS or EARPLUGS great inventions

**THIS IS THE TIME WE ALL GO CERTIFIABLY INSANE and GET FAT!!**

Hurricane Wilma (still not here)

Hurricane Wilma

OMG I dont even know where to start other than WILMA is taking forever and people are going freaken LOCO around here. Including me because not only do I feel claustrophobic with the hurricane shutters up, but nothing is on tv just the news, more of the new , did I mention the news, O yeah the news is so not informing they keep repeating the same shit over and over and over and over again!! O hell yeah have to interrupt to share that they just said they are gonna break away from the news to air Desperate House Wives and Grays Anatomy tonight .... holly shit this satilate better not go out if the weather gets it does have a tendancy to crap out of its connection when it rains, and they have been predicting lots and lots of rain.

Speaking of predictions lets talk about predictions ... The Weather forecast is just a predication right??? RIGHT!! So people go to school, get an education, and then find a job that pays then to assume what the weather is gonna be like. These people are called meteorologist ..... online it says a meteorologist is an individual with specialized education who uses scientific principles to explain, understand, observe or forecast the earth's atmospheric phenomena and/or how the atmosphere affects the earth and life on the planet. This specialized education would be a bachelor's or higher degree in meteorology, or atmospheric science, consistent with the requirements set forth in "The Bachelor's Degree in Meteorology or Atmospheric Science,". Ok yeah so they get paid the big ass bucks to tell us to prepare for a hurricane that is gonna hit us by Thursday, then O wait no not today but deff by Friday ... then friday comes along and ok ok ok the hurricane has slowed down prepare for Sat .... Sat comes and goes and no Hurricane because O wait its still over Mexico so Sunday the weather is gonna be really bad I am taking get your shutters out, stock up on food, water, and whatever else you can think of, and prepare for the worse..... Just for the record today (SUNDAY) it was hot as hell, and also sunny from sunrise to sunset. It was a total beach day. No real bad weather at all and yeah the time is 6:45pm.

My point is for the past 4 days no real change has really happened but still they insist on interrupting my fucken shows to tell us the same shit we have been hearing over and over and over again. What the fuck cant they just air the news three times a day morning, noon, and night till its really gonna come. I mean shit how much of the same shit can we really take on information a day!! Wow just had a thought ... I so need to work for the news during hurricane season. Think about it they fucken work 24 hrs and hell yeah with all that overtime you so know they are made and banking!!!

Well I am out of here for now but when I start to go insane from being inside I will for sure post again!!

Pumpkin Patch

Ok so today in the torrential down pure of rain we have been having in south Florida the past few days we (alyssa and I) decided to venture on over to the pumpkin patch to pick out our Halloween pumpkins. We saw big ones, little ones, tall ones, skinny ones, fat ones, and yes even rotten ones ewww gross o yeah and for the record rotten pumpkins smell sooooooo bad!!!

Anyway we bought a total of 5 pumpkins (2 for me, 1 for Alyssa, 1 for Michael, and a small one for pumpkin pie) Yes I had this brilliant idea to make a pumpkin pie because I had no plans for tonight and well I just wanted to. I got home and surfed the net for no lie 1 hr looking for a recipe for pumpkin pie from scratch. Yeah let just say a from scratch pumpkin pie recipe is very very very hard to find, so since I had no luck online I decided to go to the store and folloiw a recipe out of a cooking magazines. I saw this one magazine called Holiday Recipe Card Collection 2005. I thought to myself BINGO :) and started flipping through the pages. I came across this pumpkin pie recipe and saw they had both canned pumpkin pie and also real pumpkin mix so I grabbed it and put it in my cart. I wheeled around the grocery store getting what I need to make some home made pumpkin pies :). I went to check out and well lets just say it would have been cheeper to bye 10 pumpkin pies rather than making it because the total was $39.00 O yeah and that recipe magazine was 6.99 .... Yeah WTF is right ... when it rang up I was like OOooooo WHAT ..... then just said o well i need it so I paid the guy and headed home.

I started to mutilate the pumpkin for the pie and talk about hard work. I was working on it for 2 hours till my dad came home and started to laugh at me ... after he yelled "what the hell are you doing" in his heavy greek accent (dad is a chef so he knows his shit) I told him I was making pumpkin pie and cutting up the pumpkin. He started to laugh again and said it is not happening lol you have to boil it. I said no you cut it up and mash it with a fork ...... after 30 mins of mashing with a fork I saw that my method was clearly not at all working so I looked at him and said how the hell am I supposed to know you boil it to get the skin off..... I got two big pots out and started the boiling process. After 45 mins of boiling the pumpkins I have to say it worked ... so my father that damn greek once again proved me wrong

NOTE TO SELF:::: never argue with a chef hahaha!!!

Ok so I finish the pumpkins look at my clock and notice I have been working on these pies for the past 3 hrs. Yes a friday night and I am home experimenting on making pumpkin pie from scratch I HAVE NO LIFE!!!

Ok so I start to mix the ingredients.... the more I mixed the better it looked and smelled. I was so excited and could not wait to start baking them. I originally bought 2 pie pans and after I filled them up I noticed I had a lot of pumpkin mix left over so I had to make a quick run to the grocery store. When I got home the house smelled soooooo goooooood so I was stoked i mean come one pumpkin pie from scratch no one does that anymore :) whoohoo I was so doing the happy dance!!!

I cook all 4 big pies and 12 little personal size pies and let them cool off. They looked good, smelled good, and for the record I dont like pumpkin pie at all but I was sure looking forward to trying one. Yes you read right all that work for something that I hate hahaha. The time now is 11:35pm and I attempt to just suck up hating pumpkin pie so I can try what I have been baking for the past 6 hrs ..................

A $4.00 pumpkin, $39.00 for all the ingredients, a total of 6 hrs in a kitchen, the aroma around the house is like a lit pumpkin pie candle sooooo gooooood, but lets just say smells and looks can totally be deceiving ..... THEY ARE SO GROSSSSSSSS I cant even start to tell you how bad they are.

So now we have all these pumpkin pies in are fridge that I know I am not gonna eat, bro is out of town this weekend but when he comes back he is gonna think they are just bad ... yes BAD, and tomorrow when dad tries one he is just gonna laugh his ass off when he tried my horrible pumpkin pies and never let me live this day down. Why did I not get that cooking gene ... I mean come on mom can cook, dad can cook, my whole family can cook ... I swear they so had to have swtiched me at birth in the hospital!!!

Why is it when I think up these harebrained ideas no one stops me ... ALYSSA??? DANIT??? Yeah I am talking to the both of you!!

Over all was it worth it???? Well ..... ummmmm ??? Ok Ok Ok Ok Ok the truth is O YEAH :) hey we all live and learn from out mistsakes even if it was a $43.00 and 6 hrs later gross tasting lesson ... I still had fun ..... I know that thanksgiving is just around the corner so I might just try making it again. Just to say I have and who know maybe then I will say whoohoo I did it!!

Ok Ok Ok I am all pumpkin out ..... so yeah that was my friday night .... how was yours????

Happy Birthday To Me

The Caller ID GLOBE in the living room

Today I am 26.... whoohooo you say but not in my case!! You know :) I got through 25 and still working on making it through this crazy ass year so I must say over all I am doing better than I ever imagined right now!!!

What is a Birthday??? The internet says it is the day of your birth hahaha we all knew that but in my eyes a birthday was always suposed to be all about that one person. Its the one day a year that everyone can say hell yeah this is my day, no one can do you wrong, no worries in the world, and its your total fun day no matter what!!

This year it does not feel like that it feel just like any other day nothing special!!

What sucks about my 26th birthday is that it is my first birthday without mom (I miss her a lot)!! For the past 10 months I have been dreading this day !!! I wish this day would have never come because the truth is I did not want to face the traditions alone, but now that it is here I wish it would just end!! Its been a long one so far and the time is only 1:19am I still have 23 hrs of Oct 19th to live!!

:::::WISHING:::::
()

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

One Month Down

.... Oct 18th 2005 ....

1 Month down and 11 more to go for Chris Gomes

Lets keep him in our prayers!!

Family In Town

My Cousins Colleen her Husband David and little one Zowie were here in Florida from Oct 11th - Oct 17th. It was fun having them they kept dad company and the little one was well a little one. She crawls all over the place you literally need low-jack on her because if you looked away even for a second thats it she was gone!!

It was fun we did all they wanted to do except Disney World. They said next time they come back to FLA.

They went to the cemetery to visit mom
Drove around miami all of miami when I saw all I mean all
Went to the Village (old house)
Greek Church to light a candle
Hit Miami Beach and walked like 30 long ass florida blocks
Saw the Trump Hotel
Drove down Fort Lauderdale Beach
Bayside
Shorties BBQ
Sawgrass Mills Mall
Ate authentic cuban food (well pastries) at a cuban restaurant hahaha no one spoke english

Over all we had a good time!!

O yeah yesterday we went to THE PARK at the Hard Rock Cafe Casino to watch the Miami Dolphins suck ass!!

Like I said over all I think they had a good time!!

Now its time for me to catch up on some much needed SLEEP!!!

BOSTON TRIP IN A NUT SHELL

BOSTON

BOSTON whoohoohooo fun is all I have to say!!

FRI
First night in boston O yeah Danit showed me a good time. It a was a great start to a great trip :)!!

SAT
RAIN RAIN GO THE FUCK AWAY
It was rain rain rain all day and no lie so cold. Yeah I went from AFRICA HOT to whoohooo cold!! No lie Danit and I had to buy Boston sweatshirts off the street haha yeah talk about dorks :) but hey I got a BOSTON sweater out of it!! She showed me around town and yes we walked in the rain forever. It was funny because usally I would say hell no but the rain was different than FLA wet big old rain drops it was more of a mist most of the time . O yeah Danit had her rainboots on hahaha I will have to post a pic because it was no lie pretty damn funny. Yes I made mad fun at her but after my socks got wet I was thinking pretty smart investment!!
We met up with Danit's Friend Jesse (YES THE RINGTONE JESSE) he was fun :)!!
After we walked around we went to this place called DICKS :)!! its a funny ass restaurant and yes they are dicks (RUDE) to you at times but its all in good fun!!
They make these hats and each of our hats said this!!
Me: I found these kids at the playground.
Danit: don't eat meat but I play with it.
Lisa: It takes a lot of money to look this cheap.
Jesse: Two pump chump.
Katryn (Fun Sucker) : My legs are like 7-11, open 24 hours.

After Dicks we went to the bokkstore:
Here is that story!!

I was walking around with Lisa and just talking and people watching when three weird men came up to both of us ... they basicly corner Lisa and I. They wanted girls opinion on some qustions. We were like um ok this is akward but whatever lol and they asked us about if we married a guy would we take there last name. Lisa was like well yea I would if he asked me and was willing to spend the rest of his life with me of course I'd be honored to take his name. but I turn around a say hell no its the 21st century... Well aparently thats what this girl Victoria an ex gf said to one of the guys and they couldnt understand why she would not take his name. They went on with this whole speech about how they call this girl Vicky "slut" (it really started getting weird here) so lisa said if anything I would just dash and hifinate it. Then we both started to walk away from the werid men ..... when his friend grabbed Lisa and said "hey she has a U shaped smile" we were both like WTF and looked at eachother .... then this one guy explained about 2 types of smiles and i apparently remined him of his ex gf and told me i had a nice smile and I looked/should be an exotic dancer. That is part of what that smile meant. Then the creepy asian man at this piont starts rubbing Lisa's back and crossing over into her personal bubble and she start leaning into me freaked out. After about 20 mins of that shit danit finally came to the rescue. She called Lisa's cell phone from behine this bookshelf and we told the freaks we had to jet. We left the bookstore and headed downstairs when we over heard this girl talking about three guys and a U shaped smile. We all look at her and I made a comment ... she said yeah they asked me the same thing but I was alone ... O hell no that is fucked up at least I had Lisa with me and that was werid enough I dont even want to think about me being alone while they were talking to me so .... no way was I gonna take that shit so I ran up the stairs to tell the store people what happened... Then left before I had to see those guys again!!

SUN
Walked Walked and Walked around town. Bought some things for people (Alyssa and Michael) , hit the JASON MRAZ Concert (holly shit soooooo good) and then drank the night away. O yeah I met Danits Friend Noah hahaha lets just say he is a libra too. We posted Danits Number on a bunch of door boards in the dorm hahaha and had this one dude call her yeah it was fun college funny stuff!!

Danit was looking for some and wanted to go to her tall hotties apt (same apt as fri) yeah sorry Danit that was not gonna happen!!

We hung out at Lisa's till 4:30 in the morn just talking ... Lisa and I hit it off she is FUN danit fell alseep for a while and then I came up with this thought of flying standby again and when I called JETBLUE (my new fav airline) I made the decision to stay an extra day whoohoo !!

MON
Chill out day ... woke up at around 11 got out around noon and hit the town again!!


TUES
Tuesday morn while Danit and I were on our way to the Airport Lisa calls her to tell her about this site she found !! Well come to find out while Lisa was surfing the net she just decided to look up U and C shaped smiles (WHAT THOSE FREAK BOOKSTORE DUDES WERE TALKING TO US ABOUT) well low and behold an entire scripted conversation for guys to memorize and use to pick up chicks. On the site it said its a sure thing .... WTF is this world coming to!!

Then my flight was delayed 4 hrs

OVER ALL THE TRIP WAS A FUN AND MEMORABLE ONE

THE UPDATE

UPDATE TIME

Dakota is doing good his ear is almost fully healed still a little sensitive but hey at least he has an ear from the attack. Dads hands are doing good also!! The bite hand is fully healed but the hand he was hitting the dog with still hurts. I told him to get it checked out but he says no because yes he is a stubborn greek!!

THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR ... FOR GOOD TIMES ... AND BAD TIMES ....
THE FIGHT HEARD AROUND THE WORLD!!
Alyssa and I are fine ..... God damn no lie when it comes to friendships its a fucken job haha na just kidding just had a bump in the road but now all is water under the bridge REALLY under the bridge this time!! I so could not get on a plane knowing shit was still up in the air!! Anything could happen but then again anything could happen with me walking across the street and getting hit by a bus!! I just hate flying period so having that on my mind and also shit not settled it would have just made the flight, and trip 10 times worst!! BUT ITS ALL GOOD NOW!!

Michael and Gina are doing good . She is in Orlando and he is still here in South Florida. Yes its hard at times but I think all will be ok with them. They find a way to see each other almost every weekend or every other weekend so that is a plus when it comes to that relationship. Her parents just moved from South Florida to North Carolina and she misses them a lot I am not sure what she is gonna do about that but as of right now her decision is still up in the air when it comes to staying in Orlando or going to North Carolina. dont want to jinx that so I am just gonna stop talking about them.

Dad has been working hard I think he keeps working the hours he is working to keep his mind off of mom. Do you blame him?? This month is mom and dads anniversary month and also dad and my Birthday. Its not gonna be the same and I know that is on dads mind. He wont show it but I know!

Michael has been working working working and also going to school. Not sure when this kid is gonna graduation but he is not worried about it. He wants to get it over with but then he says school keeps him going at times. HAHAHA I was glad when it was over but then in some weird way I miss it!! OKOKOK I could live without the early AM classes but I do miss it!!

All of are cars are driving well. Michael is happy with his new MAZDA 3 , 5 Door, Limited Addition showroom car. Dad loves his FORD EXPLORER TRAC he just put in for his custom license plate .... PORTIA T (moms name)...... that will arrive in 6 to 8 weeks. My new beetle bug (HERBIE) I love so much NO LIE HE IS THE BEST. Gonna go down for my custom plate sometime next week. I am still thinking of names. Everything I came up was with taken so if you have any ideas pass them right along!! Its a Blue / Purple VW BUG so feel free to help out!!

As for me I am doing good hanging in there and also trying to keep busy at times. I am not working but that is ok I have some money saved up. I mean hey why save it and not enjoy it :)!! After this month I will be looking for a JOB!! Ugh I dread that word because I know its gonna be a shit ass job and not one in the industry yet!! YES YET I HAVE A FEW MORE MONTHS TILL I WILL START LOOKING AGAIN!!! Got to get pass this year and then dive right into the industry again!

This week was a very crazy week. Between the rain rain go away song in my head.... the eye doc appointments and omg dont get me started with what they had to do. Lets just say I hate eye docs. Last week bro and I were wrestling and he elbowed me in the eye and popped a blood vessel and of course it got infected. I had an eye patch on for 4 days it was so horrible but all is ok now. Just have to keep putting drops in my eyes for the next two weeks. THIS WEEK WAS A TRYING WEEK !! I jumped into my car and drove to the cemetery. I was like I so need to get the fuck over this of not going to see mom. Well yeah that did not happen..... no lie I sat in my car just crying!! :( I could not even drive into the place. YEAH I CHICKENED OUT ...I thought I could do it but I was wrong!! I FEEL GUILTY NOT GOING TO VISIT HER BUT I JUST CANT!! I HOPE I CAN SOON!!

I am leaving a day early for BOSTON .... Actually gonna try been trying all week but I finally got a standby flight at 4:10pm today. I am gonna visit Danit and also go to the JASON MRAZ Concert on Sunday. Its a short trip but one that is needed!!

Ok I am out of here for now!

P.S> Less than 2 weeks till my b-day ... OGOD 26 damn.... I better do something wild and crazy in BOSTON before 25 is long gone!!

THE LINE "IM SORRY"

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!

This weekend Murphy's Law came into effect ... wow.... it was so fucken crazy that I dont even want to relive the weekend by posting, so I will just move on and not post about it at all!! Lets just say "ALL THATS LEFT IS AN UNHAPPY ENDING :("

*I HAVE BEEN THINKING*
YEAH THAT IS NEVER GOOD !!!

What does the line "IM SORRY" really mean when it is said???
Websters Mini Dictionary Says:
SORRY IS : Feeling or expressing sympathy, pity, or regret; Worthless or inferior; paltry; Causing sorrow, grief, or misfortune; grievous


sorry - keenly sorry or regretful;
sorry - feeling or expressing sorrow or pity;

sorry - having regret or sorrow or a sense of loss over something done or undone;
sorry - feeling or expressing pain or sorrow for sins or offenses
feeling or expressing remorse for misdeeds
sorry - bad; unfortunate

I dont know ... I hate that line .... its used so loosely that I personally feel that when it is said its just said for that person so say something to the other person to make them both feel better!! Yet its still a word many people need to hear all the time, but one I just despise!! Why should you have to say "IM SORRY" ... Whats done is done right and it cant be taken back so why said it!! WHY DO PEOPLE SAY "IM SORRY".... HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN IT IS REALLY MEANT??? HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN IT IS GENUINE???? HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN IT COMES FROM THE HEART AND IS NOT JUST ANOTHER LINE??

I wish I had an answer but I dont so this post is really useless when it comes to posting so I am gonna stop right here. Rid this week and post about my next trip when it comes around!

SEE YOU ALL LATER

Chrissie :)

Halloween Horror Nights 2005

Halloween Horror Nights - Tales of Terror 2005

It is Friday and tomorrow (SAT) is OCT 1st ... its the start of my most adventurous month so far this year. As of right now OCT is all planned out, but you know what happens when ya have plans ... Murphy's Law comes into play so I will keep you posted an all!!

Wow I am actually sad and happy that OCT is finally here!! At first I so did not want it to come around, but now its like ok I will do fine as long as I keep busy and not think about mom. Wait does that mean that I am being selfish or just trying to move on. Either way I feel it is selfish, but I cant just sit around and think about it!! I get sad and turn into a BITCH!!

Well like I said I will keep you posted!!

As for this weekend:
ROAD TRIP SATURDAY DAY ::::
Leaving Fort Laudy at 8am and that should put us in O-town (Orlando) around noon :)
I do have a surprise stop planned out, but I'm not sure if we are gonna stop I dont want to rush the day so I might just scratch that idea. Its still up in the air!

SATURDAY NIGHT
HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS at Universal Studios
whoohoo its gonna be a blast!!

SUNDAY DAY::::
Check out by 11 and head on home. No rush might drive around O-town before we head back but again we are gonna play it all by ear

Yeah well over all its a short mini vacation to but hey we all need a break sometimes and this is gonna be fun!!

I will surly post when I get back!

P.S>

Happy Birthday to you whoo

Happy Birthday to you whoooooo

Happy Birthday toooo Colleennnnn :) whooohoooo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOooooo YOUuuuuu!!

This weekend :)

This weekend was fun ..... it was that good simple ice cream cone with sprinkles after a bad dinner ... Last week was the week from hell!! Had a lot on my mind and just took it out on the world ... ok ok ok one person and she knows who she is ... I AM SORRY ABOUT THAT!!

SAT 7:30pm DISNEY ON ICE :) Disney on ice was so amazing... I wish mom could have been there she would have loved the show. I was sad at the beginning, and at times I had to look away, but over all I did have a blast!! I think a lot of how I was feeling last week was about going to disney on ice without mom!! In the end I am glad I went and ALYSSA thanks for coming with me YOU ARE A LIFESAVER!! They say the first of everything is hard the first year. Yeah the world is right because my emotions have been on a roller coaster ride the past few months. You know the more and more I think about it wow really the first year is almost over!! Sometimes you want time to fly right by, but then other times you just want it to takes its sweet little time. Either way if you really think about it time is time ... it does not speed up or slow down!! Ok Ok Ok enough of my useless thoughts!!
SUN MIAMI DOLPHINS FOOTBALL GAME:
Wow is all I have to say ... GO FINS!
The short version:
Michael has season tickets and could not find anyone to go with him so he asked me. Why no right I have no plans. Well the early morning 7am day started off nice. Yes 7am on a sunday because we tailgate with crazy people. On our way to the stadium it was a monsoon no lie we got more rain that day then we did during the hurricanes that have hit fla. The rain lasted from 7am till about noon 30. Yeah perfect timing for the game ... NOT !!! The sun came out and holly skata (shit) was it was it HOT!! Ok hot is not the word lets say AFRICA HOT!! Over all again it was fun and yes they won. They are lucky because I would have pitched a fit if they lost and I had to not only sit in the rain, get my hair wet, walk in the mud with flip flops on, and then sit in the hot sun baking like a cookie for 5 hrs.... O YEAH ARE THEY LUCKY!! I guess we can say I am a true DOL-FAN!!

MON:
Have not been feeling good.... just dont want to get out of bed!! I took Dakota to the vet and he got his stitches taken out ... poor thing ... his ear is still swollen and it still looks bad but they said he will be ok . I guess that is really all that maters!!

Dads hand is doing good so all is great so far!! Lets just see if these people pay for the damage they have done!! The court day is OCT 19 ugh happy b-day to me ... regardless you so know I am gonna be in that court room!!! I will keep you posted on how that goes!!

Till next time take care and keep reading!!

P.S>
COUNTDOWN BEGINS HALLOWEEN HORROR UNIVERSAL STUDIOS HERE WE COME .... only all week to go ... TUES WED THRS FRI ...then.... SAT we are on the road to O-TOWN (orlando)!
WHOOHOOO I CANT WAIT!!
O NO this week is gonna go by so slow I can feel it!!

FEELING DOWN

SIMPLE PLAN COULD NOT HAVE SAID THIS ANY BETTER

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me ....

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

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This weekend was fun ... hung out with Alyssa , embarrassed her at her JROTC car wash ... drove with with the SONG BLASTING "AT THE CAR WASH" hahaha IM SO BAD!! We went to the rodeo, drove around town, painted potery, ate out and laughed most of the time!! Chris (alyssa's bro) left for IRAQ this weekend (so so so so so sad) but all will be ok and he will be back in 6 months on leave for 1 or 2 weeks and then gone for another 6 months to complete his tour .... then whoohoo he will be home sweet home for good.

Hurricane Rita passed over us yesterday O god dont even get me started with these FLA hurricanes ... WHY AGAIN DO WE LIVE HERE??? Good part was I got to catch a few waves whoohoo had my GONE SURFING :) sing up :) and got to hang ten ok ok ok I only have a short board and hanging ten is only done in a long board so I just SURFING THE DAY AND NIGHT AWAY!! I got to do a lot of thinking about life and all that good shit... I know I know how boring but then again my life is pretty boring if I have time to blog.

Well the next 3 weekends are already panned out whoohoo its gonna be fun !! First week of OCT I will be in Orlando (HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS), the next weekend here I come BOSTON (visit Danit and go to the Jason Mraz Concert) the third weekend full of family fun (Cuz Colleen, husband David, and daughter Zowie) will be in town from Arizona, then on the 19th whoohoo HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME O YEAH , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME BOOOYAH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR ME WHOOHOOOHOO, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEE!!!!!! O GOD I will be 26 HOLLY SHIT it just hit me ... I need a drink now ok ok ok make it a double... O MAN THAT JUST MEANS ANOTHER GRAY HAIR ... O GOD I FEEL THE STRESS COMING ON .. THINK I AM GONNA NEED MORE THAN A DRINK!! OK OK OK its not the 19th yet I still have time to think about how I am gonna change the year I was born on all my legal documents hahaha!! Well after that day passed its me singing .... "Lookout weekend cause, here I come Because weekends were, made for fun!!" O yeah that weekend its gonna be a HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND FOR ME!!

Thats my month ALL IN A NUT SHELL!!

I am out for now!!

Love
Chrissie

I DONT KNOW WHERE I'M GOING

*~*~*~*~* MY HEART IS LIKE AN OPEN HIGHWAY *~*~*~*~~*

This ain’t a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain’t gonna be just a face in the crowd
You’re gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

Chorus:
It’s my lifeIt’s now or never
I ain’t gonna live forever
I just want to live while I’m alive (it’s my life)

My heart is like an open highway
Like frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I’m alive
It’s my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For tommy and gina who never backed down
Tomorrow’s getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain’t even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

Chorus:
It’s my life
And it’s now or never
I ain’t gonna live forever
I just want to live while I’m alive

My heart is like an open highway

DEDICATION TO C.GOMES

..........NEED I SAY MORE ........

This POST is dedicated to CHRIS GOMES who is being deployed today for IRAQ
Lets keep him in our prayers and thoughts

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonligh Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight. Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there. And even though I know how very far apart we are it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright starAnd when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.... Somewhere out there if love can see us through Then we'll be together somewhere out there Out where dreams come true And even though I know how very far apart we areIt helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky Somewhere out there if love can see us through Then we'll be together somewhere out thereOut where dreams come true

Alyssa I am here for you so if you need anything just give me a call my line is always open!! For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more :) THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR!!

xoxo Chrissie

P.S> I'll be there for you :) These 5 words I swar to you !!!

WHY DAKOTA

DAKOTA's new nickname is LAMPSHADE :)

HE LOOKS SO SAD :(

I dont consider my self a bad person .. ok ok ok we all have our moments, angry, happy, sad, crazy, our experimental stages in life but over all I think I am a good person. So I have come to the conclusion that bad things happen to good people, so why the hell cant I be bad so good things will happen to me.

Anyway its only 10:38am and I have a feeling its gonna be a long ass day. I moved dakota's big bed downstairs OMG to carry an 82lbs dog up and down the stairs was gonna kill me at the age of 25 so after the 7th trip my lesson was learned I said NO MORE and took it all downstairs. Dakota is doing ok the lampshade still gets in the way and he is still acting really weird but then again what did you expect from something like this. I am home alone with Dakota right now and to tell you the truth I am scared. Wow for the first time in forever I am scared of my dog and the shit ass part is I know he can sense my fear. I know he is in pain and I keep trying to help but when I move him or even help him lay down he tends to show me his teeth. He is not at all an aggressive dog so I guess that is normal and he is just trying to tell me to "LEAVE HIM THE FUCK ALONE". I guess I am more frustrated in the fact that he cant talk and tell me whats wrong or what he need so in many ways I feel helpless. I laid down with him for a while a he finally fell asleep ahhhh he was out like a light then when I left the room he started to whine so I went back to lay with him again. I dont think he wants to be alone :( I dont blame him I would not want to be left along either!!

I cant help but wonder what if I lost my dog, what if the outcome was worst than it was with my dog and my dad. Wow is all I have to say about that and DAMN YOU "WHAT IF's" .... over all thankful it was what it was and nothing worst, but I dont know what I would have done if something worst happened to Dakota or my Dad.

I am out for now gonna try to catch some ZzzzZzzZZzz's I am so tired but I will keep ya posted

Dog Attack on Dakota & Dad

Just when you think your day your month or even your year cant get any worst ... HA HA HA HA someone finds a way to fuck all that up!!

At around 6:30pm Sept 14,2005 Dakota and Dad were attacked by a neighborhood dog. It started off as a regular night they both ate din din, and then it was time for Dakota's after din din walk. Yeah they both didn't get very far when this dog (pitbull) 3 houses away attacked dakota. Dad and 2 of the owners dog did what they could to get the other dog off Dakota but when those jaws lock that is it.

I get a phone call from my dumb ass brother and raced to the 24hr animal hospital. When I got there the dog only got a part of Dakota's face, neck but mostly his ear. They had to keep him for a few hrs to stitch it up and place a drain in it . Poor thing is right!! Now he has to walk around with this lampshade on his head. When I saw him come out of the back I was like O SHIT NO WAY hahaha no walks during the day for him for the next 7 days!! No lit its gonna be before the sun comes up and when it goes down!!

We also took hard headed dad to the hospital to get a shot ... OMG dont get me started on that. I tell you my dad can be stupid sometimes!!

Its 3:30am and we just picked him up from the ER vet. He is doing ok you can tell he is a little traumatized plus he hates this lampshade. I feel so sorry for him because he will bump into something and stop walking. I cant help but laugh at that but also feel bad at the same time.

I AM A MEAN DOG!!

The Court date for this shit is Oct 19th ... yeah my birthday happy birthday to me ... you so better believe I am so going to that.

I will keep you updated on how he is doing.

Dakota's Tail is between his legs

The lamp shade
He cant lay down with this shade on :(
His ear ..

it keeps touching the lampshade I bet it hurts like hell too

... POOR THING..

WHITE LIES

Click on link
>>>The White Lie Test <<<

Chrissie's Results of "The Test"
How many white lies do you tell?Your score = 35





What does your score mean?
You seem to believe in the virtue of honesty, but don't apply it blindly without consideration for the specifics of the situation. You level with others when it seems like the best thing to do, but also know when it's better to keep your mouth zipped. The truth, you know, can be cruel and sometimes it's simply kinder to tell a little fib. If you've ever seen the movie Liar Liar, you know what can happen if we share everything we think! Continue using your judgment, and make sure you soften the harsh truth when you do decide to deliver it.

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Its pretty ironic ... dont ya think hahaha did ya bust out sining ... you so know you did!!

So yeah I had to take this lie test and wow is all I have to say !! Anyway so yeah wow talk about a crazy over the top weekend. First off I have to say I hate to lie ... OMG why do people lie its just more shit they have to remember in the end!! Well we all know when you lie the truth will come out in the end .. that is what I have learned!!

Pretty Ironic how this weekend was a big fat lie and just the other day I was watching a morning show ... yeah yeah yeah I know I have no life hahaha but this one was interesting no lie all about lies and little white lies.

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The Today Show
2:58 p.m. ET Sept. 9, 2005

Everybody lies. It may only be “white” lies, but everyone tells lies or “omits the truth” sometimes.

We start lying at around age 4 to 5 when children gain an awareness of the use and power of language. This first lying is not malicious, but rather to find out, or test, what can manipulated in a child’s environment. Eventually children begin to use lying to get out of trouble or get something they want.

White lies, those concocted to protect someone’s feelings, are not a big deal at all. The person, however, who seems to feel compelled to lie about both the small and large stuff has a problem.
We often call these folks pathological liars (which is a description, not a diagnosis). They lie to protect themselves, look good, gain financially or socially and avoid punishment. Quite often the person who has been deceived knows that this type of liar has to a certain extent deluded him or herself and is therefore to be somewhat pitied.

A much more troubling group is those who lie a lot — and knowingly — for personal gain. These people may have a diagnosis called antisocial personality disorder, also known as being a sociopath, and often get into scrapes with the law.
Lying often gets worse with the passage of time. When you get away with a lie it often impels you to continue your deceptions. Also, liars often find themselves perpetrating more untruths to cover themselves.

We hold different people to different standards when it comes to telling the truth. We expect, for example, less honesty from politicians than from scientists. We have a vision of purity about those who are doing research, while we imagine that politicians will at least shade the truth about themselves in order to get elected.

Why do we dislike liars, especially sociopaths, so much? It’s a matter of trust. When a person lies, they have broken a bond – an unspoken agreement to treat others as we would like to be treated. Serious deception often makes it impossible for us to trust another person again.
Because the issue of trust is on the line, coming clean about the lie as soon as possible is the best way to mend fences. If the truth only comes out once it is forced, repair of trust is far less likely.
As a parent, the most important message you can send your children about lying is that you always — always — want them to come clean with you. No matter how big a whopper they have told, remind them that you would always rather hear the truth, no matter how bad it is, than be deceived. Tell them there is really nothing more sacred in your relationship than your trust of each other.

Of course, all this presupposes that we have discovered an untruth — some people are so expert at deception that it often takes a long time to find out that we have been lied to.
How, then, can we best detect whether we are being misled? There is no foolproof way, but there are often clues you can see in behavior that should make you suspicious:
Avoidance of eye contact: Usually someone makes eye contact at least half the time they are talking to you. If you notice them avoiding eye contact or looking down during a specific part of a conversation, they may well be lying.

Change of voice: A variation in pitch of voice or rate of speech can be a sign of lying. So can lots of umms and ahhs.
Body language: Turning your body away, covering your face or mouth, a lot of fidgeting of hands or legs can indicate deception.
Contradicting yourself: Making statements that just don’t hold together should make you suspicious.

Dr. Gail Saltz is a psychiatrist with New York Presbyterian Hospital and a regular contributor to “Today.” For more information, you can visit her Web site, www.drgailsaltz.com.
© 2005 MSNBC Interactive

GO MIAMI

Alyssa and I went to the Game today

WHOOHOOO GOOD TIMES

TALK ABOUT FUN IN THE HOT FLORIDA AFRICA HOT SUN

September 11, 2005

Dolphins Open 2005 Season With 34-10 Victory Over Broncos

<> Miami Dolphins Fight Song <>

Miami has the Dolphins,
The greatest football team!

We take the ball from goal to goal,

Like no one's ever seen!

We're in the air,

We're on the ground,

We're always in control.

So when you say Miami,

You're talking Super Bowl!

Cause we're the Miami Dolphins, Miami Dolphins, Miami Dolphins Number 1.
Yes we're the Miami Dolphins, Miami Dolphins, Miami Dolphins Number 1.

I dont need another mom in my life

The 6th ....

"YOU DONT NEED ANOTHER MOM IN YOUR LIFE" ... a comment made by a dude to me.... you know yeah ok the truth is I dont need another mom in my life, but sometimes when that void is emtpy inside and then touched it reminds you that people do care and are watching over you!!

Had a long talk with a good friends mom today ... OMG it was so weird but we talked about so much ... good times, bad times, had smiles , tears (lots of them) ... I had so much on my mind that it was nice to actually talk to a mom. I really miss that about mom not being around the just talking to a mom part. Friends are there, but for some reason a mom understand all plus in the end they are always right hahaha we all know its so damn true!!!! Anyway all is well and the 5th is finally over, but also this time around it was different. I cried more on that day than I have the past few 5th's since Jan. I guess I just have so much inside that I pick one day a month to let it all out. I cant do that anymore because not only am I pushing family away but also friends who want to be there for me!!

Its weird how everyone is in search of something but at times when we dont know what it is we all tend to go crazy!! ASKING A LOT OF WHY's and also thinking about shit!!

At 25 you should not be lost you should have found yourself and on that path you are gonna travel down for a long time, but I have not. My life use to be all planned out and the not knowing part use to bother me a lot, but not anymore. I guess because I see life so different now. I look at life as an open book, an endless journey, a right and wrong way of life ..... you live for life rather than live for work ... in Chrissie English "LIVE EVERYDAY AS IF IT WAS YOUR LAST"!! Anyway I know no matter what all will turn out ok. I mean look at me ... ok ok ok bad example haha but really come one I am crazy but turned out ok!!

Well I feel this week is gonna be a good one!!

ONLY TIME WILL TELL!!

COME HOME SAFE CHRIS

Well today was not only about mom .. it was also about Chris my friend (Alyssa's) Brother who is leaving for Iraq soon, so this weekend was his last time home with his family.... She is taking it well, but only because she is strong :)!! That is what I admire the most about her, so my heart goes out to all of them!!

The 5th :(

The 5th well what can I say ... another month of missing mom and who knows how many more to go.

Why is it that I dread the 5th of every month. I so hate that day!!! From 12:01am to 11:59pm the day just starts off bad, drag on, and it seems to just never end.

On the 4th of every month I am like "O got tomorrow is the 5th" then on the 6th Im like "yes, its over I got trough it but in 30 more days it will be here again AHHH". Yeah ok and I wonder why I keep getting gray hairs.

Why cant I just forget about the day and see it as just another day in the month. Well my concussion to that is I feel guilty. No sure why I guess because as each day passed I know that mom is missing out on so much in my life, even if its just a thought I want to tell her or a funny I read or heard I still feel like she is missing out on everything !!

Well I am out of here for now. I will be Missing in Action (MIA) for a while ... gonna surf a few days away to clear my mind!!

CATCH YA ALL SOON!!

MY MISSION

I was on a mission this week

My friends brother is in the army ... need I say more?? Well he is leaving for Iraq this month and she has been bummed out about a few things so my mission was to try and cheer her up. Hey its the least I could do because when I have my shitty days about missing mom she is there for me so I did what I could this week to cheer her up and let her know I am here for her!!

MON: Sunday night she slept over and I took her to school and put a cheer up card in her backpack and surprised her in the afternoon by picking her up :)

TUES: I MADE A CHEER UP CARE PACKAGE and left it in her driveway in the early AM, then that night we went a football game and had a good time :) !!

WED: She played hooky on my day off so we spend the day driving around town OMG no lie literally driving around town haha but it was fun :) !!

THURS: Embarrassing surprise pick up from school hahaha and lets just say a beetle horn is real loud plus she could not get the balloon off my side mirror lol I did that on purpose. O yeah and her crush also saw this haha it was funny classic funny that is. I told her this is nothing at all the embarrassing moments have not yet begun hahaha. Then let the Fast and the Furoious driving begin. Hey you have to TURBO it up sometime why own a TURBO BUG if you dont use it. We hit the beach for a surpirse QUARTER WISH and then made it back home with time to spear.

FRI: CHEER UP TEXT MESSAGES FROM HELL ALL DAY FROM ME

SAT: Tonight ahh its gonna be a chill out relax fun night. It is what we like to call it "OUR GIRLS NIGHT IN" ok ok going out for dindin then gonna chill out at home with chips, dip and smirnoff in our hands, while we watch the notebook hahaha.

:::: ALL OF THAT BECAUSE ::::::

In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

so

Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me
Ooo for sure
come on dudet that's what friends are for!!

THE WORST DAY EVER

THE HURRUCANE BLACK OUT FROM HELL!!

Ahhh its finally over ... ok ok ok only the hurricane not the how many millions of people who are without electricity! DAMN KATRINA DAMN HER TO HELL!!

Ok yeah so during the Hurricane I went over to my friend (alyssa's) house just because I was like ok we can so entertain each other and sanely get through this boring hurricane. It started off fun not to much drama or anything really to share till around 10am. This is when I was like what did I get myself into hahah!! Thurs in the early AM she told me I needed to help her move a few things outside. OMG this is where the "I AM GONNA KILL YA" started. Ok a little 411 I hate lizards :\ anyone and everyone know I totally hate them. Well she wanted me to go in this area (where I am sure lizard's are just reproducing by the dozens) to move this firepit. Yeah that was not gonna happen even before I saw the lizard in the pit she had to chase out for me. After some begging and sad looks for help haha I sucked it up and so helped her out but it did not end. Yeah I know I know what a friend is right trust me I keep telling myself that one. O wait this totally gets better!! Now its time to move this big ass plant thing. O god describing it does no justice IT WAS HUGE. Well she told me to stand underneeth and lift it up, so she can unhook it and lower it .... hahaha again that was not gonna happen ... DUDE we live in South Florida and lizards live in plants like this big ass one she needed to move so I laughed at her for about 5 mins and then yes gave in and sucked it up. Yes I was totally trooper and helped her ... Ok Ok Ok I had to draw the line somewhere so I only helped her lower it she had to move the thing.

Yeah thats only hr one of this drama filled boring day!! Around 11 we went tot Blockbuster yes blockbuster I know I know I am totally ANTI-BUSTER b/c NETFLIX is the best thing ever, but when your in need of some entertainment you will do whatever to pass the time so we had to go to the store and rent some movies LETS REMINISCE NETFLIX: You pick out what flick you want online, they send it to you the next day and you get to keep it as long as your want. No drives to the video store to come to realize the movie you want it all out, no long lines, no impatient people like myself around :) just you and your mail box ...... AHH GOT TO LOVE THE LAZY WAY OUT OF THINGS!! Ok so we hit BB and WOW was everyone there (IT WAS A MAD HOUSE) but it was expected because a million other people needed some sort of entertainment too right so all was good.

We got home and then the boredom started. OMG it was crazy!! Really you can only entertain yourself and someone else for so long!! All was ok we watched the news. the news, the news, and O wait did I mention we had the news on TV. It was a weekday nothing was on TV at all so yeah KILL ME is right!! We ate dindin, made some s'mores on the stove, and then sat to watch a movie. Ahh yeah finally its movie time .... All started off well till every sign that was given to us was saying "THE INTENTION OF WATCHING THIS MOVIE TONIGHT IS NOT IN YOUR CARDS" yeah the power went out. OMG it was hell .... I know what hell is gonna be like when I get there!! In all this what I have learned about myself is I can never be amish OMG how do people live by candle light .... O yeah and one question??? Why is it that when the lights go out you still insist to turn on the light switch when you walk into a room. I could not tell you how many times we all did that haha but every time I was still as funny as the last!! Yeah ok so it was such a long, hot and sticky night .... Come to find out when I called dad the neighborhood had power. GEESE is right no lie my house is in a little david bubble.

Ok so the new name for the house I was staying at is now called FORT KNOCKS ... and will forever be known as FORTKNOCKS!!! Yes it was that bad !!! Alyssa's mom heard all and a no lie would not even let us go outside to run around like crazy people. I was so shocked she let us open the window, but ugh it was bad !! Think about it FLA HEAT and no AC yeah AMISH all the way. We stayed up most of the night talking and making hand puppets by candle light on the ceiling , O yeah I cant forget to mention the crazy pics we took during this boring time. The entertainment was slowly fading away but it was still fun!!

The next morning I called dad and we headed over to mi casa.... ahhh AC was a luxury I must add. You know you really forget how important those little simple things in life really are.

As soon as we got here we so went swimming ahhh is right!! Over all it was boring but fun at the same time. Would I want to do it again hahaha YEAH RIGHT, but it was a good turn out.

Update on SOUTH FLA is most of the people still dont have power ... Alyssa and her mom are one of those thousands that done so we let them shack up here :)!!! YEAH THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR :)!! Anyway check out the damage and the stories about this hurricane at >>>> Local10.com - Home <<<<