Miss you dorkis

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason ????

I use to but I dont anymore ..... I believe sometimes things just happen !!!!!!!!!

STRESS

Have you ever felt like the world was just crashing down on you?? You felt so overwhelmed with just about everything that the walls were just closing in on you??? Your life is just flashing right before your eyes and you at times you wish you had a button so you could rewind (time itself), pause (good times), fast forward (bad times), record (what you never want to forget)and also erase (what you never want to remember), but since its life and yeah thats only happens in the movies you take the easy way out and just want to crawl into a hole to wait it all out because nothing you do can stop any of this!!!

Herman is the biggest downfall in a woman but is that just an excuse us females use for those mood swings (0-bitch in 1.5 seconds), the lol bipolar emotional roller-coaster (i love you .. i love you not) , the not so much needed stress we put our family and friends though, or is pre and on herman really a way of just letting it all out ... telling it like it is when it needs to be said at times when we are to scared or to weak to say it otherwise!!

To: Danit :)

DANIT,

I went to visit Nicholi at Taverna Opa tonight and he gave me a baklava that he made to take home ... LOL .... YUMMMMMMY it was sooooooooooo mother fucken good!! LOL ... OMG IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD I HAD TO JUST BE A BITCH FOR ONCE ...... YEAH YEAH YEAH you will get over it hahahahahaha

Danit did I mention it was sooooooo YUMMY... hahahaha enjoy the pics I sure enjoyed the taste!!

boring weekend in a nutshell

This weekend in a nutshell

Friday
Paid all my bills
watching the disney channel and hit the sack by midnight

Sat
8am -went to visit dad at the greek festival
-all the ladies who have nephews or sons wanted me to marry them
noon- got the hell out of there because really lets work on the man before the wedding
noon:30 - went to target bought a cd :)
noon 45- went to petsmart (dakota treats)
1pm- YO QUEIRO TACO BELL .. my crunchy wrap supreme sucked

Spend the rest of the day at home online

8pm-10pm -talked to Danit
10:10- went to BB to rent movies but only got through 1 because I was so bored I feel asleep

Sunday
UNEVENTFUL ONE ... gonna finish watching the other 2 movies I rented and then who knows what .. maybe go visit dad at the greek festival again ...
.........THINKING OF WHAT WHAT WOULD BE LIKE........
hook up with a hottie greek dude, get married, move to Greece, buy a house on a mountain or on a little island, make babies, and be a greek house wife hahaha YEAH RIGHT .. I think I am just gonna tube watch today !!


PS Danit here are some pics of yummy baklava hahahaha
a close up of your fav

the back room of all the greek pastries

Chris (7 mo left)

5 months Down 7 left to go
COME HOME SAFE CHRIS

WEEKEND-o-NOTHING

TGIF ... work sucked, drama, sucks, and I just need a weekend off ... o shit its a bills weekend ... time to suck it up and pay what needs to be paid ...I think this is the only thing I procrastinate at ... I FUCK HATE BILL ..... what would this world be like BILLS FREE ....... so yeah no plans this weekend ... no one has called me to do anything probably because they all know bills weekend I tend to sulk on the amount of shit I have to pay and then cant aford to go out ... damn this weekend !! I dont know of any parties either .. free entertainment and drinking is the way to go on bills weekend but nothing :( ... so its gonna be a get fat movie weekend then a guilty week of running my ass of to work off the shit I ate all weekend long.

Dad is working the greek festival .. OMG he brought some pastries home last night ... yummmmmmy is soooo the word ..... After eating some I felt so fat and you so know I am gonna bike for 3 hrs today ... yes 3 hrs ... I can taste the pastries just thinking about them ... o shit I think I am gonna have another hahaha fuck it life is so sort not to haha!!

Other than that just another uneventful weekend-o-nothing ahead!!

sneaky thursday

Thursday ... wow between the drama at work and doing crazy shit... I have to say it was a very interesting thurday ... I got a text from someone and help this someone out, but not sure why I did it because the more I think about it the more I feel I left a trail leading right back to me ..... just when I think I cant do another crazy thing I end up doing something ..... the truth will set you free ... is the most famous quote from anyone caught in a lie or hiding something. Why do we feel guilt afterwards ... why do we look back and say "what the F#%K were we thinking" when at the time we were thinking straight ... fuck I hate consequences and with every crazy thing you will find a consequence kick you in the ass.

The truth will come out someday I just hope its later rather than sooner because then we can all look back and laugh about it .... if not then we are both in deep doodoooooooooo ... nice knowing you person I will send you a christmas card :)!!

Reguardless whats done is done and we will both just have to pay the price if we get caught ..... IT WAS FUN WHILE IT LASTED AND THE GOOD TIMES FUCKEN ROCK!!
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Thanks for the help person and no lie it was fun (GOOD OLD TIMES) it never fails haha!
xxoo
me

Day after V-day

LIFE LIFE LIFE

UGH cant live with the drama and really all would be so boring without the drama ... what is a girl to do ..... I KNOW ..... hit COYOTE UGLY (new bar in town) for free KAMIKAZE SHOTS for the ladies haha ... jk it has been on my mind but na I got to start being a good girl so my night is filled with a bunch of nothing to do!!

Anti Day is over :) bitter sweet I must add ... I got one text message from Alyssa (anti v-day), found out this dude GIO at work likes me ... he is cute and I have a little crush on him but dude its work .. FUCK.... its one of chrissie's unwritten rules .. god damn my rules.... but yeah so that is a negative, the other dude I liked at work is such a JERK (I have a few other words I am thinking in my head that I cant post haha), then this dude I met this past weekend is acting all werid (FUCKEN MEN), the entire day only two dudes said HAPPY V-day to me (Tommy who I love and Miguel haha no comment), I texted one person Alyssa at 12:01am, IM'ed Danit and Jackie :) a few times all anti im's I must add, then sulked the rest of the day watching sappy romance movies and fucken wishing the world would just end because I hate the day.... O yeah and I went to bed at 9pm :) .... Well now that it is over I am doing the happy dance and are going to the store to get V-day shit 50-70% off and gonna be my own VALENTINE THIS YEAR hahaha yeah yeah yeah we all know I am a dork but WHATEVER!!

ugh Valentine's Day 06

Valentine's Day is a special time of the year for LOVERS..... People give chocolate, flowers and cards to their loved ones on February 14 ....... AWWWW hearts and candy for all one day of the year .... this is a day for people who have someone to get gifts and have hot SEX, but for those people without someone its a day to sulk, hate the world, and eat as much chocolate as they can while watching romantic comedies till they cant take it anymore, and then work off all the shit they ate alone in a room using a sex toy called Mr Ducky.

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO CELEBRATING SINGLES DAY... whoohoo time to party because we are single???? O yeah its everyday of the year for single people, so since singles get a number of singles days someone had to rub that salt deeper into that wound when it comes to us having NO ONE SPECIAL IN OUR LIVE... UGH talk about being bitter towards the day!

If you have not noticed I am ANIT Valentine's Day this year ...... I am thinking of ruling all men off just because life is so much easier without men to complicate it... but then really if you think about it what would women do without men ... ugh damn we cant win them all..... so I guess men can stay :) !!

A LITTLE BIT OF USELESS INFORMATION :) .... Valentines Day is named in honor of St. Valentine. He is the patron saint of love. How this day came alone was St. Valentine had his head cut off and it is said that St. Valentine left a good-bye note for a friend just before his death. The note was signed, “From your Valentine.”It wasn’t until the mid 1800s that valentine cards were printed.

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My Friend Danit had a few comments of her own about my ANTI attitude even though she said her POST is NOT directed to me its all Valentines Day Haters in genteral.


CLICK>DANIT's POST:)

WEEKEND POST

THE WEEKEND

FRIDAY NIGHT
NIGHT-o-FUN
xxoo dudet

SAT NIGHT
OMG lets not go there lol
a picture is worth a thousand words but hahaha I am not gonna share so its all left up to your imagination

SUNDAY
Went to the mall and had to evacuate the Broward Mall due to a BOMB threat ... WTF is right!! *note to self go to a different mall from now on!!

This weekend was an eventful weekend and let me say from FRIDAY afternoon till Sunday night it was much needed memorable one at that!

BON JOVI woohooo

The Bon Jovi Concert was sooooo great .... he sang sooooo many songs I counted 31 no lie 31 and yes all of his old songs too so thats what made if fun .... okokok it was fun because DUDET was there haha but over all it was a blast and a half of GOOD TIMES :)!!

Now for the story ... I have come to the conclusion that it is a MUST for something to happen when it comes to Alyssa and I doing something ... let me explain :) .... just because every time we have plans something fucken crazy happens..... no lie no matter how bad I try to prepare myself for the unexpected it just does not work .... for the record this story tops them all.

Like I said the concert was sooooo great but what would a GOOD TIMES day well night with us be like without a story to tell :) !!

So we are singing and watching hottie Bon Jovi on the stage when I go to tell Alyssa something and in the middle of telling her what I had to tell her I just so happen to look back to row behind us to see this WHITE TRASH WOMAN and this GROSS PIG for a guy literally full on pleasuring each other. OMG my virgin eyes is right ... and yes I totally had to do a double take to make sure what I was seeing was right and real. They were standing and his hand was so in her private (PITA) area. When Alyssa saw my face she looked back hahaha my facial expressions do tell all .... wish I could have seen my face hahaha .... well when she looked she totally had to double take on that as well. Ok it gets better ... the people sitting next to them were so pissed ... Holly shit if those people were me I so would have had to say something (yes I would have interrupted that session I DONT GIVE A SHIT THAT IS JUST FUCKEN GROSS) well the pron session went on for no lie at least 30 mins maybe even longer. Ok now for the best part ... they were getting so into what they were doing no lie I am talking full on ewwww gross shit that needs to be done behind closed doors haha that they did not give a shit that people were literally watching them. OMG the woman's facial expressions were fucken climax point ones EWWWW .... then she got on top of him and no lie were so about to have full on SEX ... ON A STEEL HORSE SHE RODE hahaha .... then .... lol yes I still have more to say .... she started to give the dude a Blow Job .... HAHAHAHA omg I was like WHAT THE FUCK ... wow I wish I took a picture to post it because I know no one will believe this was going on behind me of all people hahaha!! ok well I cant go any father into details because hahaha this is me talking and you are all lucky you got this much out of me but just use your imagination and I am sure you can fill in the blanks!!

So the night went like this
-CheeseCake Factory yummy :)
-Talking about shit, stuff, hotties haha
-Free Parking at the Arena
-Y-100 Karaoke booth lol I should have done that :)
- Found our seats
- went back to the car to get alyssa's glasses (DORKIS)
- back to our seats
- talked some more
- Local FortLaudy Band came out (ps they have a myspace lol)
-Bon Jovi Kicked Ass
- WHITE TRASH FREE PORN SESSION
-HOME-

LOL ALL OF THAT IN ONLY 5 HRS hahaha
O-GOD I can only imagine what our next story is gonna be about haha!

BON JOVI

I'll be there for you

these five words I swear to you

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Today is gonna be the first day this month (FEB) that I am gonna have a good time for sure...... it is BON JOVI night ..... whoohoohoooooo din din, tickets, bestfriend, singing, and if we are lucky racing HERBIE (lol its tradition)!!

I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!

click>>>BON JOVI SONGS

Short Update

I HATE THESE GAPS I HAVE BEEN LEAVING BY NOT BLOGGING !!

I have not blogged in a while and I dont even know where to start ....
Short version
**Another funeral this month (totaling 5 this year 2006 and its only FEB)
(Nikki's Mom passed away Feb 2nd a month after Nikki Jan2 )
**Gotten into so many fights with the world
**Confused about sooooo much
**Miss mom more and more every day
**Last but not least feel like everything is crashing down right in front of me!!

ITS A BLUE HOUR, DAY, WEEK, MONTH, YEAR!!!!

ALONE

At times you can feel like you have found yourself, found your best friend, found that one you love, found that life you want to live, feel like you are living on cloud 9, invincible to all, but in a blink of an eye that can all be taken away.

You dont realize what you have till its gone so why the fuck does everyone in this world take everything for granted??

No matter how many friends you have sometimes you can still feel all alone!

Life is to short!

Why do people do stupid things ????

It is a question we all ask ourselves, friends and family members when that stupid thing is done and over with ..... for an example .... why speed when you know that is a greater chance of getting into an accident, why do something if you know very well it is gonna get you in trouble (law or parents) , why run away from feelings and life when you know as soon as you slow down it all catches back up with you, why fight with a friend rather than talking to them, ....... is doing something stupid just another form or running away from the truth or is it just that at that time your stupid idea is a great ideas.... nope I dont think so because 99.9 percent of the time when you are looking back you are asking yourself "what the hell was I thinking"

Its crazy how we all say we thought it trough but did we really ..... if you look back and say wow that was stupid then at the time you did not think before you acted you just acted.

The world always tends to realize so much in the end but the worst part about life is sometimes the end is to late.

Even after typing this blog and also having other read it I am sure another stupid idea is just around the corner ... but then again that is life for you!

They say you live and learn but sometimes you dont get that second chance to learn!!

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EVERY PASSING MINUTE IS ANOTHER CHANCE TO TURN IT ALL AROUND!!!!!!!!!

CANT SLEEP

I cant sleep I have soooo much on my mind so I decided to blog :) 10 things I learned yesteday!!

1. BEEF JERKY is fucken grossssss .... BLAHHHHHH!!
2. It takes Tabasco sauce 3 years to age before they can use the tabasco.
3. Look both ways before you cross the street...drivers are stupid..
4. I am the queen of baking cookies :) .. unless the boss man is around then because of the stress I burn them ugh!
5. I hate hospitals I guess because I am always scared of the fact that going in does not always mean you are gonna come out!
6. I tend to run away from the world at times because I would rather avoid a fight or let my guard down because I dont want to face the truth.
7. I dont have that much in common with my little bro or my dad.
8. the one person I ever wanted to make proud is not longer around so does that mean I dont have to keep trying.
9. I fight back the tears only because I feel it is a sign of weakness.
10. I am always trying to be that strong person when really I want to join you and just cry!

**Why it is that sometimes we see things when its to late**